why?

Sunday, August 30, 2009


These are my dad's lovebirds.

A few weeks ago he was wondering why the female hasn't laid any eggs yet, when it's been a while since we got these lovebirds.

Yesterday he found out why.

Turns out both birds are male.

Wahahaha! Brokeback Birdies.

emo mode

Friday, August 07, 2009

I admit it. I've always thought Kris Aquino was irritating and maarte. I'm sure many people feel the same way. I can't count the times I shook my head after hearing something she's said or done. I've rolled my eyes a million times when she'd brag that she bought this or that, or how she's been to this country.

But the past few days, I've seen a different Kris.

One that I can relate to.

I've heard some people say that she was her normal overacting self when she couldn't stop crying every time she's interviewed. I dare these people to say the same thing after they've gone through numerous checkups, waiting for test results, taking care of a mother undergoing radiation therapy & chemotherapy and having them die in your arms. I doubt if they can still say that.

It's been 4 years since my mom passed away. And not a day goes by when I don't think of her and wish she was still here with us. Losing a parent is without a doubt one of the most difficult events in life a person can undergo. Lalo na kung nakita mo kung gaano naghirap yung taong mahal mo.

Kaya siguro sobrang affected ako nung namatay si Tita Cory. Not only because she's a fellow Scholastican that I really admire but because in some way, alam ko yung hirap na pinagdaanan nya at ng pamilya nya.

Sobrang nakarelate ako sa lahat ng sinabi ni Kris. Lahat ng kwento nya about staying in the hospital to take care of her mom, waiting for test results, talking to the doctors about her mom's condition, how painful chemo is, not only for the person undergoing it but for the family too. Ang hirap makitang nasasaktan yung mahal mo tapos di mo alam kung paano mapapabuti yung nararamdaman nya.

I wouldn’t wish cancer on even my hatest enemy.

Someone told me before that at least we were prepared for the eventuality of death, because it was cancer and not a heart attack or a sudden death. I said that for me it was harder. It’s easy to say that you’re prepared for that eventuality but when you’re in that moment, IT’S NEVER EASY.

The hardest thing to do is to let go. But sometimes you just have to, because if you’re holding on but the person you love is suffering, ang maiisip mo lang, “di bale nang ako ang masaktan, wag lang sha.”

Healing

RIP Pres Cory Aquino

Saturday, August 01, 2009

As my shift ended at 6 this morning, I felt so excited because it was finally my rest day. I was happy beyond words that the work week had ended.

On the drive from the office, I admired the yellow ribbons on the trees at Fort Global City. I was going to take pictures because it was a beautiful sight. Then our driver said, "Namatay na si Cory, no?" I felt sadness wash over me. All I could say was, "Ha? Kelan pa?" He said, "Kaninang 3:18am".

I couldn't help it. My lachrymal glands went on overdrive and I was thankful for the big shades I was wearing. Since we were gonna pass by Heritage on the way home from work, I wanted to tell our driver to go there. Feeling ko naman kapamilya ako.

But I felt as if I lost a relative, too. I only knew 2 Presidents growing up: Marcos & Tita Cory (she was everyone's Tita, it seems).

Tita Cory held power but she remained humble. I guess that's why she was loved by many.

We were listening to the radio on the way home and I couldn't help but remember how it was when mom passed away 4 years ago. Siguro kaya din sobrang nalungkot ako at naiyak, kasi nakakarelate ako. Pareho silang cardi-pulmonary arrest ni mommy & they were both battling stage 4 cancer. Emo mode na naman ako kanina.

Then when my tears ceased, Jose Mari Chan's song written by Ninoy Aquino for Cory, played on the radio. Which started another bout of crying. I texted my tita and I just had to laugh at her reply. Sabi daw nya sa cousin ko kanina na pag nalaman ko na namatay na si Tita Cory, iiyak na naman ako. Hihi. My Aunt knows me so well. :p Alam nyang numero unong iyakin ang pamangkin nya. ^_^

Tita Cory had a lot of contributions to our country. She showed the world the true empowerment of women in a very patriarchal society. She remained humble and showed utmost courage.

Thank you for helping restore democracy in the country, Tita Cory. Rest in Peace.