Last Song Syndrome

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

LSS since yesterday.  Asows. 

The Art of Letting Go - Mikaila

Put away the pictures
Put away the memories
I’ve poured over and over
Through my tears
I’ve held them till I’m blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that might keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more
How do you leave it in a drawer

Now here it comes
The hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning
Learning the art of letting go

Try to say it’s over
Say the word goodbye
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can’t set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we’ll be friends forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes
The hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do
But try to make it through the pain
Now one more day without you

Where do I start to live my life alone
I guess I’m learning
Only learning
Learning the art of letting go

bus music

Friday, July 25, 2008

I've written about the things I like about riding the bus home, now I"m going to write about the reasons why I hate riding the bus home.

Let me enumerate:

1. crowded, standing room only bus
2. the driver driving the bus at 80 mph & above, swerving left & right and ther braking too hard;
3. the kunduktor (ano ba English nito? Conductor?) telling you, "maluwag pa, maluwag pa" then when you board the bus, you end up standing for half the trip.
4. seatmates who sit like they own the bus, that you end up with just half of your butt on the seat;
5. smelly seatmates (oo na maarte na, eh ikaw, gusto mo bang may katabi kang may B.O.? di ba hindi rin? ^_^ aminin!)

ang lastly...
6. i really hate bus music!!!

OMG. #6 is the reason why I am grateful that my phone has a music player. If not, I'd probably tear all my hair out listening to bus music.

Common station: Yung "kelangan bang imemorize yan?" radio station. Tanggap ko na yung every after 3 songs, they'd ask that. What I can't take is the music. SIge, may times na ok yung music, like pag 80s love song or new wave song, or 90s music. Pero may OPM songs na hindi ko kinakayang pakinggan.

Most recent pet peeve? Tagalog versions of Low & Umbrella. ARRRGH!!! Ang sakit sa utak!

Umbrella:
"di ka na mababasa ng ulan.. di na.. di na.. di na.."

Low:
Mansanas Pantalon
at sapatos na balbon
Buong beerhouse nakalingon
ayy nadapa!
Bigla bigla!
Nagspaghetti pabababa ng pabababa ng pabababa

Kairita.

I hate goodbyes

Monday, July 21, 2008

I feel sad today. And it's all James, Dads and Shelay's fault. Hehehe.

I read their entries this morning and it all had one theme. Goodbyes. :'( I hate goodbyes. Then again, who doesn't? It's just that I realized that my little work bubble is about to burst. Over the past year, a lot of my work friends have left the company. Most of the Vonage people I worked with during my first year at work have already left.

My distribution list which had more than 30 people is down to 15 or less and it's still shrinking. I saw the latest roster and Sprint Care Wave One which had 150 agents, now only has 27, including me. Sa original team ko, Team Orion, si Ish na lang ang nandun. I feel sad whenever I see our white board na sinulatan ni Paul (our TL, who resigned months ago) ng names naming lahat. My SME team has gone down from 35 to 26 (and counting) And of course, my beloved Vonage Wave One, then 28 is now just 12 and will go down to 11 in the next two weeks. Pakshet. Halos lahat ng close ko umalis na. I'm glad yung mga natirang matibay close din sa puso ko, siguro lalo ako ma-sa-sad kung pati sila unti-unti na rin nawala. Nagtataka nga ko kung bakit nandun pa din ako. Hehe. Tanga lang.

Sabi ni TL Rye, di pa ako handa iwan yung comfort zone ko. Pano ngayon unti unti na nawawala yung comfort zone ko. Time to move on.

I posted the pic above, which I grabbed from James coz that's one of the pics I saw that made me sad. Of the four people in that pic, I'm the only one that hasn't left. Ako na lang ang natitira. Memon & Shelay resigned almost a month ago. James is set to follow in two weeks. I looked at my Photo Page earlier and I almost couldn't look at the Photo albums. Kasi sa lahat ng pictures, except sa pics na ako lang mag-isa, nasasabi ko na, "ay wala na sha, ay nag-resign na din sha." Nakakalungkot.

Nagtataka ang management kung bakit madami nang nawala. Sabi nila karamihan newbies na hindi sanay, na na-overwhelm. I say otherwise. Karamihan sa tenured agents na kaibigan ko nagresign na. Isipin nyo kung bakit. Isipin nyo kung bakit sino pa yung magagaling, yun ang mga nagresign. Sa mga kasabay ko sa Wave One ng program, tanungin nyo kung bakit 27 na lang ang natitira at madami pa ang aalis soon.

Hay.

I hate goodbyes.

ramdom thoughts on a monday

I just checked my email and was surprised to find out that I was supposed to have a job interview today in Pasig. Yikes! Why was I not informed via text message or a phone call? I mean I check my email accounts daily, but its kinda weird that they inform people this way. Not everyone is OC like me, who absolutely MUST check my email everyday. And as OC as I am, I was still surprised that I was scheduled for an interview today. As in right this very minute.

So I just called the company and was able to speak with the recruiting director and rescheduled for tomorrow at 10 am. Wish me luck! :)

Funny, as soon as I placed the phone down, I got a text message informing me to check my email because I had an interview request. Ahaha! Kung kelan nakausap ko na yung dapat na maginterview sa akin, nun lang dumating yung text. What a weird system they have ^_^

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Yesterday as I was on my way home, I received a text message from my sister. Dad was asking if I could buy 2 cans of evaporated milk. So as soon as I alighted from the jeep, I went to the 7-11 outside our village and bought the milk. As I got the milk, I saw a Gardenia Choco-mocha bread and grabbed a bar of Goya chocolate-almond bar (my current favorite). While paying for my stuff, I saw chupa-chups, my favorite childhood lollipop and got one.

When I got home, Dad said he made champorado. Yum! (So, that's what the milk was for.). As I was taking out the contents of my plastic bag, I realized one thing: everything I bought, save for the milk, had chocolate. And let's not forget the champorado. Ahahaha! My gah! How chocoholic can one get?

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A couple of weeks ago, I watched The Holiday on HBO, starring Jude Law, Cameron Diaz, Jack Black & Kate Winslet. I didn't want to watch it before because I thought it was corny and I don't really like Cameron Diaz that much. Well, that week I was glad I watched it. I absolutely loved it! I still don't care much for Ms. Diaz but I genuinely liked the movie.

I wonder if on my next vacation I'd meet someone like Jude Law? Heehee! Highly unlikely, but who knows?

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I haven't blogged much lately coz I can't seem to make up my mind on what to write, but today I can't seem to stop myself. :p. Rather than writing numerous short blogs I thought I'd write one long blog with snippets of ideas.

Just for a change.

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So this is my what? 4th topic? ^_^

How about celebrities this time? Hehehe.

I really can't understand what the fuss is all about Mylie Cyrus? Did I get the spelling of her name right? No? How does one spell it? Lemme check trusty ol' google. Oh, so it's Miley ^_^. Hehe, my bad.

I don't get why there's so much hype about her. (There goes the hate mail I'm gonna receive from pre-puberty fans...) I I don't like her voice. The few times I scanned the Disney Channel while her show is on, I found her acting OA. Her mouth is too wide (ang perfect ko no? :p). And she has a big ego. I saw her interview on tv and she was asked about another Disney star, Selina Gomez (now, she's way better and more humble too. At my age, why do I know her?!), and she said she's better. Che, mabuhat ba ng sariling bangko? And she wants to make a G-rated Sex & the City? Ahahaha! that's funny. And why do I even care?

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So, Angelina just gave birth to twins. Their first pictures are reportedly worth south of $16M, according to MSN. $16M or more?!! For baby pictures? The world has truly gone paparazzi crazy.

I've liked Brad Pitt since Legends of the Fall but ever since he hooked up with Angelina, I lost interest in him. Maybe because I'm on Team Aniston. Hahahaha! Affected much?

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Over the weekend I read that Britney Spears just gave up full custody of her kids to her ex-husband, Kevin Federline. Ang sad. I mean I can't fathom how a mom could give up her rights to her kids like that. Mas maiintindihan ko pa kung yung dad yung mag-give up ng full custody. Not that moms deserve their kids more. But because I believe mothers and their children have this special bond. After all, the babies were in her for 9 months. Sure she has visitation rights, but its not the same as having custody of the children. Hmm.. why am I affected again?

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Last na to (for this particular entry only).

I'm sure everyone have watched The Dark Knight over the weekend. US box office results say it earned $155.34M over that period, eclipsing the record previously held by Spiderman 3's opening weekend ($151M). Whoa di ba? Galeng.

Did you think that Christian Bale as the Dark Knight was overshadowed by Heath Ledger's The Joker? I thought at first that since its one of Heath Ledger's last movies (he has another one coming out within the year) the people focused more on him, but I was wrong. I still think Christian Bale fits the Batman mold best, but Heath Ledger really shined as The Joker. I mean, Jack Nicholson is a hard act to follow but his performance was nothing like Heath's. Hello? Trailer pa lang mapapa-wow ka na, sa whole movie pa? Galeng.

This early there's already a buzz that Heath could possibly get a posthumous Oscar nomination. :)

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And this ends Jennie's ramdom thoughts on a monday...




Boyce Avenue

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Whoa.. I am so impressed with Boyce Avenue, I am speechless. I'll just let the youtube videos of their covers speak for themselves. I've posted two of my favorites, hope you like it.

No Air - Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown


Because of You - Neyo:



Boyce Avenue's Official Youtube Channel

when greed takes over

Monday, July 14, 2008

I don't like conversations regarding the distribution of assets to heirs. It leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth. People's greed surfaces and it's even more disappointing to know that they're relatives. There should be a fair distribution and no one should take advantage. But I guess that's just wishful thinking. Hmmp.

what a shift

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I had a fun shift last night. It started out normally. I got there 30 minutes before my shift started and I talked to JR & Carlo,while I was checking my email. Then Rome & Chiqui transferred workstations, while they were on break (they couldn't stay at our quadrant when they arrived co the ERP was still there). Rome had chichiria, pero since madami kami, nabitin kami at naubos agad.

JR said he was still hungry, Chiqui said she was too. Then the others arrived. Marju came first, followed by Wil, Carmie, and Mike. Then Mabby also transferred to our quadrant. Everyone, we found out, was in different states of hunger.

Then someone said we should buy some chips downstairs. We agreed that we'd pay P10/person, so Mabby, JR & I went to Ministop to buy some chips. We bought 2 Tempura snacks, Vcut, Chippy and Nagaraya. Did I mention we bought the big bags? Hehehe. We were already at the cashier when Mabby & I saw the cheesebread and decided to get one pack. We looked like we were going on a picnic or a field trip because of the food we bought.

When we got upstairs our teammates were like little kids during Christmas morning. Sobrang tuwa na may pagkain. Ahahah!

We said, "It's not P10/person, its' P18/person na. No pay, no food."

To which Carlo said, "Hindi ako gutom." Wahahahahaahah! Mr. Kuripot strikes again.

At 11pm we had a scheduled training about the latest phone Sprint introduced, the Samsung Instinct. Some of us weren't on the list but joined the training, as long as the number could be accommodated because there was a client directive that the training class shouldn't have more than 25 participants. After we signed the attendance sheet, our trainer RJ said that unfortunately, we were more than 25, so some of the people who weren't on the list would have to attend the other training run. No one wanted to leave. Hehehe. Then Stef, one of the trainers said they can still accommodate 3 people, so only one would leave.

Nobody moved.
Ang kukulet.

Then Joan said, "Carlo, ikaw naman ang lalaki, magbigay ka na, kaw na lang." Wawa naman. Hehe. Then Carmie said, "Eh ikaw di ka ba lalaki?" To which Joan answered, "Hindi no, half-half lang ako."


Carlo had no choice but to leave and go back and man the helpline. Before he left the room, he switched the lights off in jest. Hehehe. Funny, pero parang naawa ako. Sabi ko pa, ang laki-laki nya, inaapi natin. It's a good thing he's not pikon.

meme time

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

I've been trying to blog for the past few days, but I can't seem to organize my thoughts. In the meantime, let's answer some memes. :)

1.What is more difficult: To let go everything or forget what happened?
♥ to forget what happened

2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry?
♥ Hmpft… let’s just say that lately I get angry when I think about the developments at work.

3. You will die in three minutes. Last call?
♥ family

4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
♥ Good health and wealth for family & friends

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love
♥ trust

6. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
♥ I haven’t and I’d like to say I wouldn’t, but depending on the situation, I think I might be forced to. Engk.

7. Think of the last person you've met.
♥ Sino nga ba? Ah! Lam ko na, yung QA Teammates ni Dads

8. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
♥ Yes :p

9. Would you sleep with someone if you had the chance?
♥ ano sa tingin mo? ;)

10. Are you old fashioned?
♥ about certain things

11. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
♥ Yikes! Both are hard to do but I think it’s harder for me to open up and tell someone I love them.

12. What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
♥ life, love

13. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
♥ nyiii… it’s been a long time

14. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, and you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
♥ my significant other

15. Would you give a homeless person CPR?
♥ I don’t know how to do CPR, I’d like to think I will. If not, I’ll call someone who would.

IF YOU HAVE 3 months TO LIVE

16. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
♥ yes

17. What do you do with your remaining days?
♥ go through my list of things to do before I die, and do everything that I can

18. Would you be afraid?
♥ of course

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What do you want for your birthday?
♥ macbook air (yes wishful thinking to :p)

Who will be your next kiss?
♥ that i dont know

When was the last time you went to the mall?
♥ Saturday

How did you spend your summer?
♥ swimming with the family, superfriends and the SME Team; overnight trips with the SME Team at Antipolo & Batangas; went to Puerto Galera with the Superfriends

Have you been to the cinema in the last 7 days?
♥ nope I haven’t. Hopefully this week.

What was your last purchase?
♥ kikay bookmark from Powerbooks; dinner at A Veneto

What was the last food you ate?
♥ bacon & egg

Who would be the person you would call if you’re up in the middle of the night & couldn’t sleep?
♥ someone I know would usually be up that time of the night; my best friends

Have you bought any clothing item in the last week?
♥ nope

Do you have a pet?
♥ 2 dogs, Meatball (spritz-retriever mix) and Popoy (beagle-labrador mix)

What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
♥a lot of things. Kulitan with the superfriends, phone conversations with Pee-em, looking at pictures posted by my friends online; looking at the old ID pictures on the Public Share drive at work. Ehe.

If you would be anywhere right now, where would you want to be?
♥ Tagaytay, Tuscany or New York

One thing you hate about yourself?
♥ one lang? hehe. impatient.

Do you miss anyone?
♥ mom

What are your plans for tomorrow?
♥ work, get lots of sleep

Last person you messaged?
♥ text? Chie Tiu, wishing her luck

Ever went to a camp?
♥ nope. Di uso dito ang camp

Were you a good student in school?
♥ I’m proud to say I was, but I wasn’t nerdy. Hehe

What made you smile today?
♥ the weather. It’s rainy and cool. Sarap matulog.

Are you tired right now?
♥ Nope. Just a bit sleepy and lazy. It’s cold coz it’s raining and I have a shift later. Boo!

Are you in a fight?
♥ no

Do you love your best friend/s?
♥ of course

What song are you listening to?
♥ Staring at the Sun – Rooster

What is your favorite song/s for the moment?
♥ Because of You – Neyo, No Air – Chris Brown & Jordin Sparks (Can you believe it? May gusto na akong R&B songs ngayon?); Collide – Howie Day (yes, I know luma na sha. Fave ko pa din sha)

Give your favorite line from this/these song/s.
♥ Because of You:
I got a problem and I
Don't know what to do about it
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it

No Air:
But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
Cause my world revolves around you
it's so hard for me to breathe


Collide:
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

What is your biggest fear?
♥ be alone

Write down names of important friends.
♥ postepeeps, superfriends; sme team

Do you have sex-bestfriends?
♥ ano?! Fu-bu ba? Wahaha! Kalokang tanong to. Wala noh.

Do you like to watch the sunset with your love?
♥ Of course. Pero kahit with anyone I would. It’s always nice to watch the sunset. Masaya din yung watching the sun rise.

What is your favorite thing to do right now?
♥ take pictures, answer surveys like these, facebook!

Have you ever loved your close friend?
♥ I love all my friends ;)

Do you think break up sucks?
♥ Always.

Is time an important thing to you?
♥ oo naman. Time is gold diba? Hehe

Are you bored?
♥ yes, that’s why I’m answering this. I should be asleep by now though.

Do you wanna go back to the past?
♥ Yes.

Do you have bestfriends from the opposite sex?
♥ yup

What colors do you like?
♥ purple, blue, black (parang pasa lang)

Do you like to drink beer until you get drunk?
♥ Nope. Mas matindi ang effect sa akin ng beer kaya mas pangit ang feeling ng hangover.

Do you have important things to say to someone right now?
♥ secret na lang ;)

What do you do for fun?
♥ depends sa mood. Road trips, food trips, malling, hang out with friends, etc

What's one thing you like to have right now.
♥ tangible: Macbook Air or iTouch
Intangible: peace of mind

Are you sleepy now?
♥ a bit

If you have a chance to say i miss you, to whom would that be?
♥ hmmm…

Saturday night with the Postepeeps

Sunday, July 06, 2008

It's 4:30 in the morning and I am on my lunch break. Yep, for the first time in almost 7 months, I have a Saturday night shift. ACK! HIndi na ako sanay!

The good thing about this shift is that it's quiet because there's less agent headcount. I'm almost done with my service observes and my uptraining quota. Ang dami kong na-accomplish today. :)

Thank God for the very strong brewed coffee that I drank at the start of my shift. If not, I would have fallen asleep when I was doing the service observes. I only had about 4 hours of sleep because I left the house early so I could meet my friends in Glorietta.

Ria set up a get together for the Postepeeps before she gives birth on the 16th of the month. I wasn't sure I would be able to make it because I have a Saturday night shift, but I am glad I sacrificed sleep because I haven't seen them in a year and a half. My gah! The last time I saw them was during Aimee & Eric's wedding. Although we communicate via text and email, seeing them is waaay better.

I met Ria & Freg with their hubbies and babies at Glorietta and we had dinner at A Veneto. Too bad the others that were here in Manila couldn't make it. It was great seeing my friends, although I couldn't relate to the baby stuff. Ahahaha! Monanita at Maita, asar kayo at di kayo pumunta. Wala tuloy akong kasama na hindi makarelate. ^_^ But it's okay, I had a wonderful time. Too bad I couldn't stay as long as I wanted to because I had to go to work.

Guys, let's do this again soon. Sana lang hindi na years noh! Maybe we should set a get together once a month? What do you think? :)

2 years na ba yun?

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Today is my 2nd anniversary at work. I still cannot believe I lasted 2 years, after all the complaints, rants and frustrations, specially during the past few months. ^_^

Out of the 25 people in our batch, only 8 remain, 12 if you add the others that joined our Client Specs. Whoa di ba? I've lost touch with s few but most communicate in some way. And the 12 that reamined are as close as ever.

I've learned a lot during the past 2 years. there have been many ups and downs. I've been in two accounts, have been given the opportunity to take in more responsibilities. There are a lot to be thankful for but what I treasure most are my superfriends (wave one and friends), the sme team, my tl friends. Without them, I know I wouldn't have made it to this day. Friends have come and gone but the friendship remained.

My wave one friends and I were spamming earlier and we listed the things we learned during the past 2 years. It was hilarious! I wish I can post it, but it would reveal too much, hehe.

Happy Anniv Wave One! Akalain nyo yun, nagtagal tayo? ^_^ Whatever we decide on the next few months, I konw the friendship wouldn't end. Sa dinami-dami pa naman ng pinagdaanan natin? :) Here's to more bonding moments, inuman sessions, overnights and roadtrips.