happy new year!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year!

2009 be a prosperous year for everyone

hay... nasa-sad ako... may pasok ako mamayang gabi :( hindi na-approve ang leave ko. Isipin ko na lang for more pay ito. pampalubag-loob. hehe.

twilight pinoy version?!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Sobra na talagang pag-ka-addict sa Twilight to.

I was supposed to blog about our Christmas celebrations but I got so distracted by the rumors circulating that there's now a Twilight Pinoy version, entitled.. drum roll please... Takipsilim. I mean WTF?! Shempre napamura ako. Hahaha! Maisulat ba naman pati ni Perez Hilton. Di ba kaloka?

Then I realized,"Hey, Kian is a friend of Cathy Garcia-Molina, the rumored director. I gotta confirm this." So I texted Kian and after a few minutes he replies, "May nagtanong din sa akin nyan na friend kahapon. Hehe. According to Cathy, she's not the director and she's not aware if meron ngang porject na ganyan ang abscbn for development."

Thank goodness for connections. Hehehe. I can now breathe a sigh of relief.

a rude awakening

Sunday, December 21, 2008

I woke up this morning to the sound of the house phone ringing. I didn't want to answer it because it felt so nice sleep inside my comforter cocoon with this morning Christmas weather. But I guess my dad was in his garden at the back of the house, my sister already left and my brother is still asleep. I had no choice but to anwer the extension phone in my room.

I said hello groggily. The male voice no the phone said, "Hello, pakilakas nga po, di ko marinig."

Wow. Ginising mo ako tapos demanding ka pa?! Grudgingly I said hello louder and asked who was calling. He said his name was Jomar, who sounded like he was between the ages of 15-17.

The caller asked, "Pwede po ba magtanong?" and I said, "Yeah, ano yun?"

I guess you know where this conversation is going to lead to by now...

He then asked if he can bang me. Eew. Pardon the term but that's what he said.

By then I was irritated. I woke up for this?!

"Dude, it's 8 am on a Sunday, don't you have better things to do like go to church to atone for your dirty mind? I am still sleepy, I am not interested and for the record, I like men with brains."

And then I hung up with a smile. Ahaha! Bitchy me strikes again.


Monday, December 08, 2008

I haven't been in the mood to blog lately. I put the blame on the Christmas cool weather, coz let's admit it, it feels so much better to sleep and hide under the covers.

It's funny how I keep a list of thing I want to blog about and how I try (operative word: try) to write a blog about it. Lately, I haven't had much luck posting anything except my previous team's pictures.

Now that I'm in the mood to write, I'm still trying to figure out what to post first. Hehe. Should I post chronologically or depending on how my thoughts flow? Ampft. Ang OC! magsusulat lang, ang dami pang arte - that's my subconscious talking, or "ang aking konsensiya" in the vernacular.

Anyway, I'll just go with the flow.

I think I'm jinxed.

In a span of one year, 3 of my TLs resigned. First was Paul, then Kria, and now Alfie. Anubeh?! At that rate, I should be used to it already, but when we had our last team meeting, I couldn't help but cry again. I learned about TL's resignation about a month ago, and I didn't want to believe it first. Why? Coz TL Alfie was one of the TLs I'd always approach whenever I wanted to resign and she would always be able to convince me not to. Nakukuha ako sa positive scripting, hahaha! Sometimes I wonder if I'm so gullible or her convincing powers are that good . It's sad to see her go, especially since she's one of most supportive TLs I know, and when our beloved SME TL Kri left, I requested to be transferred to TL Alfie's team.

I didn't tell my team mates that TL was resigning even if I wanted to tell someone just to get it off my chest. A promise is a promise. Besides, It wasn't my place to tell them. That's why when another agent approached one of my teammates and said, "So, ano naman ang feeling ng mawawalan ng TL?" I wanted to clobber her. Antipatikang chismosa to! Until now, whenever I see that agent, nagsasalubong kilay ko.

TL resigned coz she's fulfilling her dream and we are happy for her, it's just sad that the team had to be dispersed to other teams. At least we'd still be in the same shift, although not for long, some will be resigning, too.

Ano ba? naiwan na naman ako.

I'm so indecisive. I think Mike L is right. Isa ako sa Big Four. Hehehe. I have this list of Pros and Cons, that normally helps me make a decision, but this time I'm having a hard time deciding. Most of my friends have left and more are planning to leave. Most of those who left are generally happy that they've moved on to different companies. but here I am, very vocal about leaving, but CAN'T even do it. I've given up 2 good opportunities and for what? I, too am perplexed that I gave it up. But I can't say I regretted giving it up. I really don't. Maybe it's not the right time. Or the right opportunity. I just hope I realize it's the right time & opportunity when it hits me.

Maybe I'm reluctant to leave because I've been to 4 different companies already and I know how it feels to start over. How challenging it is to adapt to a new environment and work with new people. They keep on harping about how good the culture of my present company is, and I agree, of all the companies I worked for, nothing beats the culture of eGS. Ang tanong? Kaya ba akong buhayin ng culture? Hahaha!

I wanted to write about the EK Trip we had on Thanksgiving Day, but my mind is so cluttered. Ang daming nangyari, there new "Carlo-isms", shrieking moments, etc. I had fun during the mini-reunion that the SME Family had and although there were some that didn't go (hmm...), the ones that did go had a blast. We had so much fun, I completely forgot about taking pictures. I just hope the ones who took pictures would upload them soon. (paging Enri... hehe) I'll probably write about it another day, hopefully. Hehe.

Ooo! I got new glasses. Finally! It's violet. Wee! I'm still getting used to it coz my eyes are weird. My left eye's grade went down, while the right one went up. So if you see me walking like I'm drunk, it's just my eyeglasses. Haha! I've colored my hair chestnut brown (di ko pa kaya mag-red hair ), but I still haven't decided on how to cut my hair. What is with me and making decisions?!

I'll upload a picture soon.

virtual makeover

Friday, November 28, 2008

Hehehe.. natuwa ako sa virtual makeover. ^_^

I've actually been thinking of changing my hairstyle (eh.. may style ba ngayon? ) for a while but I don't know which hairstyle fits me. So I was really glad when I found a link to a makeover site on Yulo's multiply page (thanks, teh :D).

I've narrowed it down to the 12 pics above, but I still can't make up my mind. I'm partial to photos # 4, 5, 6, 9 & 10.

Hmm... which do you think is better?

Twilight Premiere

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Thanks to the kindness of friends, I was able to attend the Premiere night of Twilight at Cinema 3 of Megamall earlier. And for free. Weee!

I'm still on running on a mix of Twilight, caffeine and sugar high. Addict na to.

I went home early after shift so I can still sleep a few hours before going to Megamall. I met Yulo in Starbucks Megamall Bldg A at around 7pm, thinking that I'd be late. But loand behoild, ee were the only ones who arrived on the agreed upon time (hehe, excited) and were frantically texting the others. We were supposed to get the tickets from Stef's friend at the Bowling Center but Pia texted that Leann was already at the Cinema, so Yulo and I went there. Stef was on the way, Mike was still stuck in Pioneer and Pia was in a slow moving cab along Ortigas.

Everyone was running late but we met up at the Cinema thankfully before the movie started. Yulo & I met up with Leann & Jeff. Stef arrived next, followed by MIke then Pia. Filipino time nga naman :P It was supposed to start at 7:30pm but the movie started an hour and a half later. Magic 89.9 sponsored the premiere, and so like all sponsored events, there were games first before the actual movie. Ang corny! It was so boring. hahah! Or maybe I was just too excited to watch the movie that I felt like saying, "C'mon, let's cut to the movie!" Hehehe.

Finally it was time for the movie. Oops, di pa pala! The Proactiv ad wouldn't load. Haha! We were joking that the ad was pirated coz the screen showed "Not available at this time." Basta parang pirated DVD sha ^_^

I was beginning to get fidgety when the logo of Summit Pictures popped on screen. Wee! Twilight na. My friends and I couldn't contain ourselves. Kilig kung kilig. During one scene, you could feel the crowd's excitement. Pos nagpipigil ng kilig, but there was one person in the cinema who couldn't contain herself, so ang lakas ng voice nya na kinikilig talaga. Everyone laughed and hooted. It was so funny! It's hard for me to write about the movie without giving parts of it away, and as I've said before I'm not a movie critic so I am not going to attempt to make a film review. :)

I'm sure this revelation isn't gonna be a surprise: I loved the movie. I think as a whole, the movie stayed true to the book. Yes, there were a lot of cheesy scenes (c'mon, who doesn't like cheesy scenes sometimes? ), some scenes were deleted, some characters were not like I envisioned them to be. But all in all, I liked it.

The good thing about reading the book before watching the movie is the excitement you feel when you know something's coming up. The anticipation builds and if it lives up to your expectations, the better it is. On the downside, you're left wanting more when it doesn't.

It's no secret that I love Robert Pattinson. I don't care what the others say, I think he's the perfect Edward. Kristen Stewart as Bella was okay. Although her Bella is not as frail or as vulnerable as the Bella in the book. I think she's more of the Bella of Breaking Dawn than Bella of Twilight. As for Jacob, he was okay, too. I think out of all the characters in the book, he was the only one with all his scenes intact. No more, no less.

I liked Emmett and Alice, as well as Carlisle & Esme, but their exposure was too short for me. Jasper felt robotic, or as Jessica in the movie said, "the one who looks like he's always in pain." Ahaha! I was disappointed with Rosalie though. Methinks Nikki Reed got the part because of her connection with the director, Catherine Hardwicke (Nikki co-wrote her first movie, thirteen, with Catherine - first name basis, close lang?). Hopefully on the next installments of the Twilight Saga she'd warm up to me.

As for the villains, Cam Gigandet was the perfect James. And Victoria? She was beautiful and menacing.

The movie ran for about an hour and 50 minutes but it felt "bitin". I was left wanting for more. Hay, I can't wait for the New Moon.

On the way out of Cinema 3, we were joking what if there's going to be a reporter outside who'll ask us how we liked the movie? And true enough there was someone with a video camera taking footage of the premiere crowd. Ahaha! Iwas kaming lahat.

The Volvo Edward drove in the movie (well, not the exact car, but the same model) was outside CInema 3 and we wanted to have our pictures taken there, but there were a lot of people who had the same idea.

I got home around 1 am and because of the coffee I drank, I didn't feel sleepy. Yulo's also online and found a link where we could watch the movie again. Hahaha! PM me if you want the link. The quality is not that good (it's pirated, what do you expect? ), but it's passable.

Gotta go, watch uli ako. Hahaha!

eheads' reunion concert in cinemas

Saturday, November 22, 2008

For those who were not able to watch the Eraserheads' Reunion Concert last Aug. 30, 2008 and for those who did, here's your chance to relive the much awaited event.

In cinemas starting Nov. 26 (kasabay ng Twilight. WHy not watch both consecutively )

on expectations

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

"It is wiser not to expect, but to hope. For in expecting, we meet disappointments; whereas in hoping, we invite surprises."

--forwarded text from TL Kri.

Maybe I should take that quote to heart. Time and again I've been disappointed because maybe I expect too much, or I expect the same courtesy from others.

I remember what my lola used to tell me, "It is foolish to expect the same treatment you give to others be given back to you. Iba-iba ang tao. What's important to you may not be important to them and vice versa.."

The sooner I learn that, the less disappointments I'll have.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Before i proceed to my entry, let me greet a very special person.


I was up late last night browsing youtube for the Chris Brown/Rihanna concert footage coz I wasn't able to watch it. Boo hoo. Eh kasi naman, tagal na namin nagyaya ni JR walang sumasagot kung sino gusto manood, pos at the last minute nanood sila. Uy, bitter? Ahahaha! Joke lang. Of course I wanted to watch, but I can't coz 1. It's dad's birthday and my family and I had plans (which fell through, but we were able to celebrate on dad's actual birthdate, so yay!); and yung 2nd reason, secret na lang. Hehe.

Anyway, I actually didn't expect that an hour after the concert, someone would upload videos immediately. So I was pleasantly surprised to find some. A good Samaritan actaully posted footage of the whole concert. Hahah! Kamusta naman yung ngawit ng kamay nya nun? Not that I'm complaining, coz at least even if I wasn't physicall at The Fort, I was able to watch it. Ang galing ni Chris Brown, love ko na sha. Ahaha!

After browsing the concert footage, I suddenly remembered that the e.r. episode where Anthony Edwards returned, albeit in a flashback, was shown in the US last Thursday. I was so glad to find a full episode posted on youtube (thank God for youtube coz the streaming videos on the nbc e.r. website doesn't work outside the US).

e.r. has always been one of my favorite shows. It was always on my must see tv list every week, and I watched every episode from the pilot until Season 8. Why just Season 8? Coz the old Channel 5 carried e.r. but after that season, they didn't carry it anymore. e.r. resurfaced on the cable channel 2nd avenue, but they started with Season 12. WTF?! If you're gonna continue showing a series, shouldn't you start where it left off? So when I watched that, I felt disconnected to the series coz a lot has happened in 3 seasons. A number of series regulars left the show, new characters were introduced, whom I never understood completely coz there was no backgrounder for me; new story arcs which completely confused me, so I lost interest in watching it.

Way before Grey's Anatomy and House, MD, the medical drama to watch was e.r. Created by the late Michael Crichton, Steven Spielberg & John Wells, e.r. is the longest running medical drama and most awarded drama on American television. It catapulted George Clooney from obscurity to the star he is today. You could say he's the original McDreamy. :)

This is e.r.'s 15th and final season and my interest piqued again because of that. So yesterday when I watched the episode where Anthony Edward's character, Dr. Mark Greene returned (as a flashback, coz his character died at the end of Season 8), I was reminded why I loved this show in the first place. And naturally, I watched the seasons I missed. I had an e.r. youtube marathon. I enjoyed it so much, I watched the bloopers from all seasons, as well as the countdown of the top 50 e.r. moments.

My top 3 e.r. moments: 1. the death of Mark Greene (that was a real tearjerker coz I really loved his character); 2. when Carter & Lucy got stabbed by a psychotic patient & 3. Ambush, the episode they played live.

I laughed my head off. I bawled my eyes out. If you would have seen me yesterday, you would have told me, "Para kang tanga. TV show lang yan!' Hahaha! You can't blame me though. It's still tops my list of the best shows ever. Even better than Grey's Anatomy (sacrilege!). And you know how much I love Grey's Anatomy, but hey, nothing beats the original.

I am excited to know the other original cast members would return. I know for sure that Noah Wyle (Dr. John Carter) is set to do 4 episodes, Eriq La Salle (Dr. Peter Benton) is returning and will direct an episode, Juliana Margulies (Nurse Carol Hathaway) has already declined (but I am still hoping she comes back). Most of all, I am excited to know if George Clooney will be back. I really hope he does! If not for anything else, he owes the show, coz he wouldn't be the big start that he is right now it fit weren't for e.r. Latest entertainment news says he will be back, but it hasn't been confirmed yet. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed.

In the meantime, I will watch more e.r. episodes online. All 15 seasons :)

ano nangyari sa friendster?!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

WTF is wrong with friendster.com?! I haven't been able to access it since yesterday due to a scheduled maintainance and then when I was finally able to access it just now, I found out that I lost some friends. I have 800++ friends there and what pisses me off more is that I can't seem to remember who's not there anymore. ARGHHH! Bad trip. They better fix this soon. Hmmpft.

music rewind

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

While most of the world was watching history in America unfold by electing the first African - American as President, I was watching youtube videos of the Freddie Mercury Tribute Concert.

It's not because I'm not interested in current events (I am!), but because I felt giddy watching live performances of my teenage music, plus I had a feeling it would take Sen. McCain a miracle to win. As I write this, I am watching John McCain's concession speech on CNN. I must say his speech was heartfelt and showed humility and grace in defeat. At one point his supporters booed when he mentioned Pres. Obama's name, but he reprimanded them. I think that showed class.

Anyway, back to the Freddie Mercury Tribute Concert. It was held on April 1992 a few months after Mercury, the lead singer of Queen, died of AIDS. I hadn't planned on watching it but I just kinda stumbled upon it, when I got a myspace bulletin that one of the bands I liked back in High School, Trixter, had reunited at Rocklahoma 2008.

So, I browsed youtube for videos of Rocklahoma and watched videos of my favorite bands as a teenager - Warrant, Trixter, Skid Row, Guns & F'N Roses, Metallica, etc. O nagulat ka ba? Hehehe. I was a metalhead back in HS (well, a metal head who liked New Kids on the Block, hehehe. go figure.). I had all the albums of GnR, Warrant, Skid Row, etc. I bought Metal Head Magazine (but I also bought Teen, 16 & seventeen magazines :P). My binder cover was the Guns n' Roses logo I painted. Hmm.. I wonder where that painting is now?

One of the videos I browsed was Extreme's More Than Words they performed live at the Freddie Mercury Tribute Concert. I was transported back to the time I wanted to learn how to play the guitar. And that was because of Extreme's guitarist, Nuno Bettencourt. My parents' generation had Jimmy Hendrix, my generation had Slash and Nuno as guitar gods. Anyone who's heard GnR's Sweet Child of Mine & Paradise City and Extreme's More than Words know what I'm talking about. :)

After viewing More than Words, I browsed the videos of Extreme performing a medley of Queen's songs, and I was again awed by Nuno's guitar skills. Napanganga na lang ako. Their lead singer's dance moves were funny, but the vocals were great. And the crowd? Wala ako masabi kungdi WOW. Great energy. I loved their reaction during Radio Ga Ga. Amazing.

Sharing these videos (Nuno is the guitarist wearing the white long sleeved polo shirt with red necktie):

Forward to 2:03 for the start of Radio Ga ga & 3:27 for the crowd participation:

You may watch the concert videos here, with performances by GnR, Elton John, George Michael, Annie Lennox, David Bowie, etc.

those damned shoes!

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

I swear I will never, and I mean NEVER, ever wear my pointed 3 inch heeled shoes.

Slap me silly if you see me wear it again.

I used to love that pair of shoes. I used to wear it everyday to work (when I worked at a normal office). Dang it! I used to run wearing those shoes. Yes, I ran. hahah!

But as of today, I am never wearing it again.

My feet are freaking killing me! @#$#^!#%&$!!!

Is it really the price we have to pay for vanity? Or after 2 years of wearing flat shoes, sandals, or flipflops to work, I'm just not used to wearing heeled shoes?

Hay, ewan. Pano yun? Weakness ko pa naman ang shoes? Pag may nakita ako sa mall na shoes na gusto ko, i'll buy it basta maganda, forget the comfort. haha! bobo lang.

harry potter and the half blood prince trailer

Monday, October 27, 2008

SNL Weekend Update Thursday

Friday, October 24, 2008

Will Ferrell and Tina Fey returns to Saturday Night LIve. Wee!


Friday, October 17, 2008

I watched the final trailer of Twilight for the nth time this afternoon (adik lang ^_^), and imagine my surprise when I saw the Philippine flag displayed prominently on one of the scenes from the movie.


Cool no? :D

where are our manners?

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I found this article on the web and I wanted to share it with you guys. This article was an observation of a writer from the US but I think this applies to us as well. I've noticed that our good old Filipino manners are becoming a rarity. Call me an old geezer but I think everyone, especially the younger generation, needs a refresher course on good manners these days. That's why I'm foregoing my usual for contacts only entries and I've set it to be viewed by everyone :)

I am not perfect and I admit that I've committed some faux pas, but I also try to be mindful of others. I hope most of us would be too, coz it would really make things better. :) Aminin nyo, minsan naiinis din kayo pag may nakikita kayo sa Mall na teenager na sinasagot-sagot ang parents nila. ;)

Where Are Our Manners?

By: Rebecca Brown

As I crammed myself onto a crowded train this morning, I noticed there was a very pregnant woman standing near me, jammed in tightly and hanging on for dear life. I looked at the passengers sitting in the seats that are supposed to be surrendered to the elderly, physically challenged, and other people who need to sit, and all of them were listening to iPods. Most of them were also texting or reviewing email, one person was reading on a Kindle, and two people were watching movies. Not one of them even looked up; everyone was too absorbed in what they were listening to, reading, or watching to even notice the protruding belly and flushed face of the pregnant passenger.

Over the past few years, there have been countless discussions on minding our manners within our new modes of communication. Is it rude to text someone and ask him on a date? When is it appropriate to forward an email? Do we befriend someone on a social networking site we’ve only met once?

But while we’ve been debating the dos and don’ts of technology etiquette, it appears that many of us have forgotten some of the old school manners that our parents, grandparents, and teachers taught us—manners that have nothing to do with a keyboard or a monitor, but have everything to do with the long-forgotten Golden Rule. Maybe technology has eroded our brains so much that we can never go back to those golden days, but there are a few simple courtesies that I’d like to see make a comeback.

Hold doors for people.
This doesn’t just mean men holding doors for women—anyone who has the arm strength to hold a door for someone should. Holding a door shows that we’re paying attention to what’s going on around us and that we care about others even if they’re a complete stranger. That little bit of awareness also helps take our minds off the busy, crappy day we might be having. Plus, it’s a nice and unexpected way to pay it forward, kind of like smiling at a stranger. Hold the door for someone and someone else will hold it for you later.

Give up seats.
Lizzie Post, great-great granddaughter of Emily Post and author of How Do You Work This Life Thing?, says this is one practice she’d like to see happen more often. “Giving up your seat to someone is so easy. Even when people don’t accept your offer, I think it’s nice to get up and stay standing so they know you’re sincere. The more that we become the good example, the more it will catch on.”

Most of us were taught that it’s good manners to give up our seat to the elderly, pregnant, and physically challenged. But if we pay attention on trains, buses, in waiting areas, and other places where people stand, we might notice someone else outside those categories who could also use a seat—like someone carrying a bulky box or a heavy load of groceries. Common sense should prevail; if you see a situation where you think you’d prefer to sit, it’s a good idea to offer your seat.

Let those inside the elevator exit before you enter.
You know the scene. The elevator doors open and a crowd of people waiting to get on rushes toward you, making it difficult to get out. Post says the onus of politeness falls on those waiting for an elevator, meaning they should clear the exit path for anyone getting off and not enter the elevator until it’s clear. She also recommends that waiting until all people exit is a good rule to follow before entering anything—restaurants, shops, dressing rooms, etc.

Mind your telephone manners.
Our chief etiquette concern back in the “olden” days of telephones was remembering to write down a message when someone called. Now that we can take our phones anywhere and use them to do scores of things beyond just making telephone calls, our problems have spiraled out of control. Obnoxious ringtones, picking up calls in public places, sending a text message when a call would be more appropriate, and subjecting innocent bystanders to inappropriate conversations are just a few common telephone missteps.

But Post says that many of our phone snafus could be corrected if we’d follow one simple rule. “Excusing yourself to take a phone call in a private place is something I’d like to see more of. We’re so used to people being on the phone now that this isn’t a common practice anymore.” But what if we we’re in a place where we can’t step out to take a call? Post recommends to keep it brief and to keep the conversation appropriate. “Making plans is okay,” she says. “[But] if you’re gossiping, talking badly about someone, or saying something inappropriate, those should be closed-door conversations.”

Introduce people.
In Bridget Jones’s Diary, Bridget’s friend Shazza nails it when she advises Bridget to “introduce people with thoughtful detail.” Walking up to a group of people and never getting introduced is awkward and rude. This is often a sign that the person who should do the introductions has forgotten a name, which makes a great case for simply asking the person in question to tell you their name again. It also proves that introducing someone with some details and flair makes a difference; the person on the receiving end of the introduction will have more information to use when committing a name to memory.

Say please, thank you, and you’re welcome.
It sounds simple, but the magic words really do work magic. Using them shows our appreciation for what someone is about to do or has done for us. Says Post, “Pretty much everyone says thank you, which is fantastic. But I would love to hear more people use ‘please’ and ‘you’re welcome.’ If I say ‘thank you’ back to you and not ‘you’re welcome,’ that’s overriding your ‘thank you.’” Our moms weren’t just being cute when they told us we would catch more flies with honey. “Please,” “thank you,” and “you’re welcome” are some of the sweetest—and most useful—words in our language.

Respect elders.
Recently someone I know well surprised me by saying that he thought respecting our elders was a silly courtesy since not everyone deserves to be respected just because of his or her age. Touché. But how about simply showing them civility and common courtesy? An elder is, by definition, someone who has lived longer than we have, so they’ve accumulated more experiences and thus, more wisdom. We don’t have to agree with their wisdom, but acknowledging that there might be some helpful information that comes from their experience is nice. It’s also considerate to express gratitude to a related elder who helped pave the way and/or care for you or a family member who came before you, such as a mother or uncle.

Handwrite thank-you notes.
Paper correspondence in general seems to be a dying practice and unfortunately, handwritten thank-you notes are part of the casualties. I know I’m often guilty of sending a thank-you email when I’m pressed for time, which seems to have made its way on the list of accepted practices. But it’s that taking of time that really shows our appreciation. Anyone can send an email, but finding a nice piece of stationery or note card, handwriting our thanks, finding a stamp (who has those anymore?), and then getting to a mailbox to actually send it goes above and beyond in expressing our gratitude.

Sophisticated technology doesn’t mean that good manners have to be a thing of the past. In fact, Post says she defines good manners using three simple, everyday principles: consideration, respect, and honesty. “Apply those to any situation and toward all the people involved—including yourself—and [the solution] will make sense.”

Source: Where are our manners? by Rebecca Brown-

be happy

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Be happy.

That's the message Dads wrote for me on his farewell letter to his friends at work.

Simple pero sapul na sapul.

I haven't been the same cheerful Jennie since God knows when. My life is one big routine. I wake up, go to work, go home, sleep and wake up again to go back to work (of course I eat and take bath in between :p).

On the outside I might seem the same but on the inside, if I'll be honest, I am sad and hurting. Only my closest friends know why but I'm not going to talk about it. I'd rather stay quiet and let it die a natural death. I don't think I have to defend myself to people who don't really know me. What's important is that my true friends know who I am.

It's going to be a lie if I say I don't care. Because I do.

I am really bothered and to add to that, I spoke with my TL last week and she asked me what my goals are and I couldn't give her an answer. Talk about being stumped by a question. It's easy enough right? I thought so too, until I was asked that question.

I am stuck in limbo. F**k it! At my age, I cannot afford to be stuck in that state. Back in school, I had a timeline. I had a plan on what I would be at a certain age. But life happened and I am no where near those plans. I can't even remember what those are right now.

How pathetic.

I was watching tv earlier and I had an epiphany. I knew what I'm missing in my life. I have lost faith. And it was such a sad revelation that I couldn't help but tear up.

I've never been a religious person, even if I studied in an all-girl's Catholic school from Prep to High School, and I went to a University run by Christian Brothers for College. I knew the religious rituals, I know the prayers, I know the BIble Stories, but it was all mechanical. I didn't take that to heart.

I can't even remember the last time I went to Church and heard mass. Was it two years ago? Grabe. I've always said the religion doesn't matter, it's my relationship with God that does. But I realized earlier that I don't even have that now. Yes, I pray but only when I need something or when something is wrong. Ang pangit pakinggan, but it's true.

I prayed a lot when mom was sick. But when she was gone, my faith slipped. I mean who wouldn't? I'm not justifying how I felt but I've always had this question in my mind, "Why mom?" Why did this have to happen to us? They say God isn't going to give you a challenge that you cannot overcome, or that you are given challenges for you to learn an become stronger.

Maybe. I don't really know.

I don't want to sound preachy. And this really doesn't sound like me because I've always had issues with scripture spouting people, but that's another story.

I see my cousins who have strong relationships with God and I am in awe of them. Sure they have problems but they have this aura around them. I can't explain it profoundly, but it's like no matter how big their problems are, they don't feel burdened like I do. I stayed at their house over the weekend because it was lola's despedida and I felt so much lighter there. I asked one of my cousins why and she told me, "Kasi ate, alam ko He'll provide." Not that she said she's not going to do something about her problem, but that she knows there would be someone to guide her in the right direction.

I need my faith now more than ever.

I've always loved Take Me Out Of the Dark by Gary Valenciano but I've never really taken the lyrics to heart until now. I felt like the song was made for me (hehe, vain much?) No kidding, yung lyrics ng song, yun yung nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Take Me Out Of the Dark
Gary Valenciano

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
'Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there

uaap finals 2008

Friday, September 26, 2008

The Ateneo Blue Eagles captured the UAAP crown yesterday, but not without controversy on the officiating and Rico Maierhofer's finger.

First, congratulations to the "Hail Mary Squad" from Katipunan. I may be disappointed that my Green Archers didn't win this year, but I think it was a deserved win. It was a good game and I think the Ateneans were ripe for the win, as evidenced by their record starting from the Elimination Round to the Final Four and finally during the short-lived Championship series.

I guess it was time for them to capture the crown. I mean look at the Special Awardees, pinakyaw nila. Hehehe.

I might be burned at the stake for saying this being a La Sallian & all, hehe. but i don't agree with Coach Franz's observation that it was the worst officiating ever. There may have been lapses in officiating and it affected not only DLSU's game but ADMUs as well. In my humble opinion, it was just the breaks of the game. (Eh? tama ba yung term? you know what I meant right? ^_^)

We can't be champions every year (no matter how we wish and pray :p). Isa pa, sayang yung second chance points coz they don't rebound. My gah. I kept screaming at the tv. They didn't box out like they used to. Maybe because this year's DLSU team was relatively young. They have a lot of rookies and for a Championship squad, they need more time to gel. But hey, we must look at it this way, even with a relatively young squad, we reached the finals. It just shows how good the DLSU system is.

On Rico's behavior, I cannot give an opinion coz I didn't see that part. If it was true that he flashed a dirty finger then it's very disappointing. It doesn't leave a good impression. If it was not true that he did it, malas na lang.

Oh well, as disappointed as I am that my team didn't win this year, there's always next year. :)

Sana lang, the team went and got their trophy and medals. I understand that they are disappointed, devastated even. But I believe that a person's greatness is evidenced by their actions during defeat. It would have been nice to see them holding their heads up high instead of being thought of as spoiled brats or sore losers. Sayang. They would have been magnanimous in defeat.

a bus story i'll never forget

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I never run out of bus stories.

I have a new one.

And out of all my bus stories this is one story I will never forget.

Last Friday as usual after work, I rode the bus from Shaw to the corner of Roxas Blvd. & Coastal Mall. It started out like an ordinary day. I logged out at 9:30am, walked the short distance from the World Wide Corporate Center to the bus stop in front of StarMall and waited for the NAIA bound bus. I was already sleepy coz I only had 4 hours of sleep before going to work the previous night. It was a good thing I didn't have to wait long for a bus and the bus I rode had a lot of free seats. Yipee! I really hate riding a packed bus, with just half my butt on the seat (hehe!).

I sat on the right side, near the window. I didn't have a seatmate until Guadalupe when a guy sat beside me. I minded my own business at first and tried to watch the film being shown on the bus (it was Resident Evil 3, if you're curious :p).

After a while, I noticed that the guy beside me kept bumping me whenever the bus driver hit the brakes. I thought to myself, "Ang OA naman nito, di naman ganun kalakas yung pagbrake." Because I was so sleepy, while we were stuck in traffic at EDSA, I closed my eyes a bit. The sun was also hurting my eyes (vampire?).

I woke up when I felt someone breathing on my neck. PUNYETA! Maniac yung katabi ko! Eeew! Kadiri!

It was a good thing I had fast reflexes coz the moment I felt his breath on my neck I sat up straight and hit him in the face with my elbow and screamed, "kuya manong, may maniac sa tabi ko!". The guy was surprised coz 1, he didn't think I would react like I did and 2, I think I broke his nose when I hit him with my elbow. Wahaha! Vengeance is mine!

He got up as soon as I screamed and he was able run out coz unfortunately, someone just got out of the bus. The conductor and some of the other passengers tried to run after him but they weren't able to catch him. Too bad! I would have loved to see that guy in jail. But I guess it was okay coz I broke his nose. How could I be sure? Hehehe.. nagdudugo ilong nya nung tumakbo sha palabas eh. ^_^

Meanwhile, back in the bus I felt weird coz everyone was looking at me, talking to me (or should I say, interviewing me?), or was talking about me. I've never liked the spotlight and I felt really uncomfortable.

I think my adrenalin was on overdrive that time coz I didn't cry like any normal girl would if something like this happens to them. I didn't feel helpless. I felt furious. Then I felt like laughing coz I remembered my reaction. My gah. Palengkera mode. But hey, at least I was able to defend myself, right?

While I was laughing at my reaction, I texted my friends about what happened. They were worried but they laughed at my reaction, as well.

Moral of the story: Always be aware of your surroundings. Always be on guard and don't close your eyes for even a second if you're commuting alone. Having fast reflexes is a must :) Wag ka na mahiya mag-eskandalo, if it will save you.

Do I still ride the bus home? Yup

Am I scared? Not really. Hmm.. Maybe a little bit. But I'm comforted by the thought that I was able to defend myself.

Do I still close my eyes while on the bus ride home? Hell, no!

Live from New York, it's Saturday Night!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Saturday Night Live's 34th Season started last night and the opening was hilarious. It's good to see that Tina Fey had a cameo. :)

I just love Tina Fey & Amy Poehler. Their parodies of Republican Vice Presidential Candidate Sarah Palin & U.S. Senator Hilary Clinton was spot on. Hehehe! Kamukhang-kamukha ni Sarah Palin si Tina Fey ^_^

twilight saga

Monday, September 08, 2008

I finished reading all four books from the Twilight saga in 5 days. Yup, you read that right, 5 days.

5 days na puyat ako kasi pagkauwi ko ng bahay babasahin ko yung ebooks, tapos sasabihin ko sa sarili ko na, "one chapter na lang, promise." hehe, yung one chapter naging 10 chapters hanggang matapos ko na.

I believe I got eyestrain, but it's worth it. :)

I loved Twilight and Breaking Dawn (many fans didn't like it, but I really did). I didn't like New Moon and Eclipse was okay.

My favorite character is still Edward Cullen. He can't seem to do anything wrong for me. Hahaha! Kahit pa sabihing, "Ang martir mo, kakainis ka!" Di ko magawang mainis. Ahaha! affected.

I liked Bella in Twilight but by the time I read New Moon, until I finished Eclipse, she annoyed the hell out of me. "Make up your mind, Isabella Swan!" She turned out all right by Breaking Dawn, though. :)

I'm not going to attempt to write a book review, I'm not an expert in that. But I can honestly say that even if there were scenes and characters that annoyed me, or there were cheesy parts, I loved it. I mean, c'mon. Who doesn't like cheesy scenes? ^_^

I can't wait to watch the movie. Sana Nov. 21 na.

Stand up to cancer telethon

Saturday, September 06, 2008

I am currently watching the Stand Up to Cancer telethon on StarWorld and I couldn't stop myself from writing about it.

It's no secret that I lost my mom to cancer 3 years ago and my family and I know first hand how devastating it is. Cancer is "the incurable" disease and people diagnosed with it, always feel like it is like having a death sentence. I'm sorry if that sounds morbid, but it is a reality.

For now.

And I believe that. I have to be optimistic. I want to see in my lifetime a cure for cancer. I want to able to say someday that it is a disease that we can all defeat, not just by early detection.

I think its noble that they've put up a fundraiser like this, with big name stars in the entertainment, sports and medical field. Admit it, having celebrities involved generates more interest. And I hope they raise a large amount for cancer research.

My mom was a fighter. She battled the disease for 9 years. In that span of years she lived life to the fullest. She went to work, we had our parties, our family vacations and roadtrips. She had 2 surgeries, 4 rounds of chemotherapy, 2 rounds of radiation therapy and she never gave up. Yes it was hard for all of us. Most especially her. And although there were bouts of sadness, she didn't let the disease define her. And I admire her strength. If I had a third of her strength, I'd be happy. She lost the battle but it didn't defeat her spirit.

Oo, iyakin ako. Umiiyak ako habang nanonood ng telethon. Hehe.

So, if you have something to spare, you can donate online, just go the the Stand up to cancer website: http://www.standup2cancer.org/

hard to believe

Monday, September 01, 2008

"...I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much

Oh please don't take it all away
But with you heaven is still close enough to touch

Because your love is still the only thing
That matters in this world

The only thing I can believe..."

- Hard to Believe, Eraserheads

Hard to Believe. My ulitmate, favorite Eraserheads song. That's why when Cueshe did a cover of that song, I was livid. I thought to myself, "What a sacrilege!" Hehe. but that's another story. ;)

There's quite a lot of Eraserheads' songs to choose from and picking just one favorite is really hard. At some point of my existence, there's a different Eraserheads song that would fit any phase I was in. That's how universal their songs are to me (and probably most of the Ehead's fans).

So what brought on this nostalgia? As if you didn't know. Hehe. Of course it's because of the much awaited Reunion Concert.

I wanted to watch it the moment I heard that they were going to have a reunion. Sadly it wasn't meant to be for me. But through the power of camphones and youtube, I was able to watch the Eraserheads perform together again after several years. And they sang the songs of my generation.

It was electrifying.

Even if I wasn't there to watch it live, I felt the energy of the crowd. Kiniliabutan ako pagkapanood ko ng opening. Grabe. I was so envious of the people who were able to watch Ely, Raimund, Buddy & Marcus play together as a band once again.

I felt like I was in high school once again . Hehehe, oo na, my age is showing. I don't care. Before the Eraserheads, I didn't listen to OPM. Call me elitist or whatever, but I was so into American & Brit Pop, Rock & Alternative music then that I didn't listen to OPM. Back then, the OPM scene was not thriving like it is now. I think the only OPM I listened to was The Dawn, and I was influenced by my older, more music savvy kuyas. Thank God. :)

As we all know, the concert was cut short when Ely was rushed to the hospital. Yes, it was bitin, but I echo the sentiments of the people who were there. The 15 songs were worth it. There weren't any boos or shouts of refund, or bottle throwing, like expected, when they announced that it was the end of the show. I guess the crowd matured already and they understood the situation. I'm glad Ely is okay.

Whoever thought of the reunion concert, thank you. And to the people who made it happen, bless you. I hope there's gonna be a part 2.

Is it too early for me to ask for another reunion concert? :)


Saturday, August 23, 2008

I started reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer today and I love it! Sobra! I can't wait to finish it and read the next three books (or ebooks, in my case). Which means I am also looking forward to watching the movie when it comes out in November 21, 2008. I wanted to read it the first time I heard about it but I haven't had time to read it. I'm sorry Stephenie Meyer, I'm in kuripot mode so I just downloaded all 4 books. I promise that when I'm out of this mode, I will buy all four. Heehee!

Highly recommended.

Go ahead and read the book.

You'll love it, I promise :)

I'm gonna go finish reading the book now, and I'll leave you with a picture of Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson (Cedric Diggory from Harry Potter), who play Bella & Edward from Twilight the Movie. :D

why can't i save a blogpost without a title?

Saturday, August 16, 2008

If there was one good thing that came out of the SMEs disbandment, it would have to be the our closeness. We are closer than ever. I mean we were close before, but now we're really, really tight.

I guess we're all hanging onto each other, lengthening the times we spend with each other until the inevitable schedule change in September. We haven't really felt the full impact of our dispersal to other teams because we still have the same blocked schedules, and our workstations are near each other. But come September, we'd follow the schedules of our new teams, and we'd see each other less.

This week we still had our breaks and lunches together and we were still in one or two quadrants. It's funny how we gravitate to one another. It's like our first instinct when we arrive at the floor is to look for one another and find workstations that would be close to one another.

Twice this week most of us would go to Shang after shift to have lunch before going home. Parang we can't get enough of each other's company. It's like we're accumulating the time we spend together because we know that we'd see less of each other soon.

Yesterday was Chris' last day and we had planned on going out for lunch after shift again. But after shift, Chris & Chie were no where to be found. Ang daya! Nauna na sila umuwi. Hmmpft. Chris said he had to go somewhere, but my gut feel tells me he left before we all have another drama mode.

Even if Chris & Chie went home already, Joan, JR, Mike, Kayeee, Rome, Marj, Rona, Sofie, Ness, Herwin, Minnie, Rox, Mae, Carmie and I still proceeded to Shang for lunch. Hehehe.. ang dami namin. As usual, maingay at masaya kami. You can't put us in one place and expect us to be quiet. :p Lunch was fun. It was like having lunch with your family during a family gathering or being in a reunion with friends you haven't seen in years. Yung maingay, halo-halo at patalon-talon yung conversation, naguusap like we haven't seen each in 10 years. Asaran. Karinyo-brutal. My gah, mamimiss ko yung ganun.

It's funny how in all our gimmicks, Joan ends up being the treasurer. Hahaha! Parang pagkatapos ng lahat, we'd look at Joan and ask her, "Magkano babayaran ko?" Pos si Ms.(Mr.? :p) Sungit, ma-aasar pero sha din ang magko-compute. Ahaha!

Marj said something while we were waiting for our food to be served and it struck me most. She said she doesn't feel sad yet coz we have the same schedules and that she knows she will feel the full impact when we all have to be with our new teams. Hay. I have to agree. Ngayon pa nga lang na magkakasama pa kami nasa-sad na ako, what more pag iba-iba na ang schedules namin at hindi na kami mashado magkikita-kita?

Abangan ang susunod na kabanata... :)

The only SMEs we rarely see are Wil and Carlo who are both on the night shift. We see each other on the floor before they go home but because of the different schedules, bihira na kami magkwentuhan. Wil was supposed to be on terminal leave already but she texted yesterday that her resignation letter hasn't been signed yet.

I always see Carlo in the pantry when we're on break and Carlo, who rarely joins in our daily email spamming emailed last night, "Teammates, goodluck sa ating lahat at nami-miss ko na team natin =)" Aww.. anchweet. He doesn't seem the type who'd say that coz sometimes he's just deadma, so everyone found his short email sweet.

Natatawa pa ako kasi nasalubong ko sha kahapon. I told him that we're planning to go to Shang after shift to have lunch and invited him to go with us. He said he can't because he has an early shift. And I said, "Ok, next time na lang." bade him goodbye and proceeded to walk to my station. Then he calls me, I looked back and asked him "Why?" He said, "Hindi ka mawawala sa T-shirt mo." Waves bye and left. Meanwhile I was still standing near MR-014 looking confused. ANO DAW?! Then it hit me, I was wearing my Orion shirt (yes that shirt again :p), with my name printed at the back. I couldn't help but laugh and shake my head while walking to my workstation.

Mamimiss ko talaga silang lahat!


Monday, August 11, 2008

I hate this. To add to the sadness and aggravation I'm feeling now, all 5 paragraphs I wrote earlier were erased. Argh!!

My previous entry was about positivity and its proving to be a hard thing to do. I can't make myself feel positive and I just feel so sad today. I've been sad since last week and it's been a real challenge feeling positive.

Last Saturday was our TL Kria's last shift. She'll be on terminal leave and my beloved SME Team has been dispersed to other teams.

It's official: The SME Team is now just a legend.

Saturday shift was our last shift together and it had been a great run. The team may have dispersed but the friendships we made and our bond will remain strong. It's very disheartening to think that after all we've been through, we still lost the battle.

To be honest, we have been dragging ourselves to go to work these past few months. Ever since the "big reveal" in April. We went to work and did our best hoping against hope that everything will stay as it was. To no avail. We all know that TL Kria did everything to fight for us and we certainly appreciate that. We hold no grudges that she was one of the first to leave because we know how hard it was for her. We understood and I know that she understood us too, and supported us wholeheartedly when we said we were also looking for better opportunities outside the company, where hopefully, we would be more appreciated. Where our talents and capabilities will be given importance.

Last week, I felt like there was this big, dark cloud hovering above us. That at any moment large torrents of rain would just pour over us. Even if we didn't say anything and we seemed like we were back to our normal selves, it's not the same. We laugh and joke around but if you look, really look, you'd see that the smiles never reach the eyes. If you look closely, you'd see the sadness in all of my team mates' eyes. You'll see how demoralized we feel, you'll see the hurt.

We were comforted by the fact that we were still together as one team and even that has ceased to be. Some of the SMEs have resigned, most, if not all are going to follow soon. We all volounteered to go back to production and we only had ONE request. That we'll stay as one team. Even that was not granted.

Last Saturday, time seemed so slow. An hour into the shift, JR was surprised that it has only been an hour, it felt like we've been there longer. I agreed, coz the past few days, we were actually surprised that it was time to log out already. TL Kri also commented that it felt like the night dragged on. I said, "TL, baka naman pinapatagal lang yung time na magkakasama-sama pa din tayo." Maybe it was that. Or maybe we were just wanted the day to end so badly that we felt time was slow.

Everyone wore red last Saturday. We all agreed it would be nice if everyone wore the same color but when we got there, Sofie said we looked like we were going to a rally. (KMU? :p). Hehe. It wasn't our intention when we thought of what color we're wearing, it was just the color that all of us had on our closets. But maybe its our subconcious' way of telling them we wanted to go out with a bang. I don't know. All I know is I'm going to miss everyone. Yes we'd still see each other, but it's not the same as being in one team, under one shift.

We made plans after shift, we were gonna have a despedida GA for TL Kri, but before we left we discovered something that made us feel like we were used all over again. Ang saya. And yup, I was being sarcastic.

We went to Muchos in Pasig after shift for 3 hours of videoke fun. Nothing releases stress better than beer, the company of friends and singing your hearts out. We had our own version of The Singing Bee, with Peds as our host. It was a riot! The finalists were Joan, Chie Tiu and I. Joan was the first to be eliminated and I was next (damn you avril lavigne! I would have won if I knew the lyrics to your songs by heart :p). Chie will be defending her bling-bling on our next videoke session.

Then it was time to go. We were going to sing "Thank you" to Tl Kri and we promised ourselves there will be no crying but that promise by broken. I'm sorry, I was one of the first to cry. I really tried not to. But as soon as I tried to sing I felt the tears flow. And then I heard someone sniff and then the floodgates burst. There was no way to stop the tears from falling. We weren't able to finish the song, kasi yung background parang pang-horror movie. A bell tolled during the song. Weird. So we moved to the next song, which was Through the Years. Anubeh?! Di lalong bumagsak luha ko. Our last song was With a Smile. Hay, iyakan pa din kami.

After the song, TL Kri gave her last message to us. By this time everyone was crying. Ang bigat sa dibdib, coz now it's final. Aalis na sha at magkaka-hiwahiwalay na kaming lahat. Starting Tuesday hindi na sha yung TL namin, at kahit pare-pareho schedules namin, hindi kami magkakasama. Habang nagsasalita si Kri, nagfaflashback sa isip ko yung mga adventures at misadventures ng SMEs. How we all stuck by each other through the ups and downs and how Kri was there to fight for us every time. Naalala ko yung mga trips namin nung summer, yung mga Carlo-isms, mga rebelde mode namin, kung gaano kami kakulit tuwing meetings, kung paano kami natahimik nung pinagsabihan kami ni Kri during our first rebelde moment. Madaming masasaya at malulungkot na times together. But what struck me was how we all bonded. Nakakatawa na ang pinaka-bilin sa amin ni Kri ay magpapakabait kami. Alam nya kasi na yung personalities namin, pag inagrabyado mo yung isa, kalaban mo lahat. Mabby and I were in the cab on the way home and weren't able to stop the tears again. I think that's when it hit us that we're not a team anymore. I literally felt like a zombie. We were so dazed I wasn't able to say goodbye to everyone. Mabby and I just got in the cab. We were already in EDSA when we realized that.

I felt so sad when I got home. My dad even commented on it. Mukha daw akong pinagsakluban ng mundo. My team mates and I were texting each other and everyone felt the same way. Sobrang lungkot and it felt like we lost our drive to go to work. Sana sandali lang tong feeling na to. Ang pangit kasi eh. I feel so defeated. Shyet. Kelangan ko ng chocolate ice cream. I need my comfort food.

Thanks Kri for everything you've done for us. We really appreciate it. I hope that you'll have a less stressful time where you're going. God knows kung gaano ka na-stress sa amin at sa situation natin this year. Be happy coz we're also happy for you. We're happy that you will now have peace of mind. We're sad that hiwalay na tayo pero sabi mo nga, we should all choose to be happy and not wallow in the sadness. Promise, we’ll really try to.

WITH A SMILE - Eraserheads

Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
You can't win at everything but you can try.

Baby, you don't have to worry
'Coz there ain't no need to hurry
No one ever said that there's an easy way
When they're closing all their doors
And they don't want you anymore
This sounds funny but I'll say it anyway.

Girl I'll stay through the bad times
Even if I have to fetch you everyday
You'll get by with a smile
You can never be too happy in this life.

In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's the one you love can make the world go round
But dont let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song.

(Too doo doo doo...)
Let me hear you sing it
(Too doo doo doo...)

In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's a wonder love can make the world go round
But don't let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song.

Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
Now it's time to kiss away those tears goodbye

(Too doo doo doo...)
Let me hear you sing it
(Too doo doo doo...)

positive thinking

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

It's been a while since I posted a blog pala. I guess I was either too tired or I just wasn't in the mood to write.

So my beloved SME Team went back to prod last night. Surprisingly, it wasn't as toxic as I remembered. I took my last production call way back in January and I was prepared for panic and toxicity last night but I didn't feel it. I even made several upsells without even trying. Hahaha! Pure luck, and my previous TL Paul can attest to this, I don't upsell if I don't feel like it. ^_^ Pasaway! But I was still able to receive upsell spiffs before, o di ba? Hehe.

I think it also helped that all 23 of us (out of the original 34) were still in one team, under the guidance of TL Kria (huhuhu.... not for long, though, but that's another story). I realized last night that our team is really noisy. And I mean loud, booming voices, and we don't laugh, I think the proper word for it is guffaw . I'm sure some of the agents on the floor were irritated because we were noisy, but we didn't care. We were too preoccupied to notice it.

I actually made a vow last night before going to work that I wouldn't think too much about our situation at work. I wouldn't gripe nor would I complain. I also said I'd just ignore the people involved in the "big change". It's hard but I'll try. Coz it really wouldn't solve anything. I'd just feel bad about it. Maybe it's because I've accepted the fact that some people are really there to make your life challenging. Whooo! MARTIR! So not me.

I've always been a fighter. I don't like people who take advantage of other people just because they're the ones in position. I always fight for the underdog and I'm brutally honest. If I don't like you, you'll know it. You wouldn't ask yourself, "Galit ba sha?" rather you'll say, "Ah, galit sha." I'm also very vocal, but always try not to be rude (I hope I've succeeded in that). And during meetings I'm not afraid to ask questions or give my opinions when asked for it. So, doing nothing about a certain situation is not me. But I guess sometimes we all reach our saturation point. Fighting something or someone who's stubborn and don't want to budge is tiring. And rather than focus on that, I'd rather shift my focus to more positive things. Like looking for a new job that would satisfy my financial needs as well as my growth. Coz at the program I'm in, the career path is quite foggy.

So here's to more positivity. I hope I will be able to sustain it.

Last Song Syndrome

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

LSS since yesterday.  Asows. 

The Art of Letting Go - Mikaila

Put away the pictures
Put away the memories
I’ve poured over and over
Through my tears
I’ve held them till I’m blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that might keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more
How do you leave it in a drawer

Now here it comes
The hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning
Learning the art of letting go

Try to say it’s over
Say the word goodbye
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can’t set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we’ll be friends forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes
The hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do
But try to make it through the pain
Now one more day without you

Where do I start to live my life alone
I guess I’m learning
Only learning
Learning the art of letting go

bus music

Friday, July 25, 2008

I've written about the things I like about riding the bus home, now I"m going to write about the reasons why I hate riding the bus home.

Let me enumerate:

1. crowded, standing room only bus
2. the driver driving the bus at 80 mph & above, swerving left & right and ther braking too hard;
3. the kunduktor (ano ba English nito? Conductor?) telling you, "maluwag pa, maluwag pa" then when you board the bus, you end up standing for half the trip.
4. seatmates who sit like they own the bus, that you end up with just half of your butt on the seat;
5. smelly seatmates (oo na maarte na, eh ikaw, gusto mo bang may katabi kang may B.O.? di ba hindi rin? ^_^ aminin!)

ang lastly...
6. i really hate bus music!!!

OMG. #6 is the reason why I am grateful that my phone has a music player. If not, I'd probably tear all my hair out listening to bus music.

Common station: Yung "kelangan bang imemorize yan?" radio station. Tanggap ko na yung every after 3 songs, they'd ask that. What I can't take is the music. SIge, may times na ok yung music, like pag 80s love song or new wave song, or 90s music. Pero may OPM songs na hindi ko kinakayang pakinggan.

Most recent pet peeve? Tagalog versions of Low & Umbrella. ARRRGH!!! Ang sakit sa utak!

"di ka na mababasa ng ulan.. di na.. di na.. di na.."

Mansanas Pantalon
at sapatos na balbon
Buong beerhouse nakalingon
ayy nadapa!
Bigla bigla!
Nagspaghetti pabababa ng pabababa ng pabababa


I hate goodbyes

Monday, July 21, 2008

I feel sad today. And it's all James, Dads and Shelay's fault. Hehehe.

I read their entries this morning and it all had one theme. Goodbyes. :'( I hate goodbyes. Then again, who doesn't? It's just that I realized that my little work bubble is about to burst. Over the past year, a lot of my work friends have left the company. Most of the Vonage people I worked with during my first year at work have already left.

My distribution list which had more than 30 people is down to 15 or less and it's still shrinking. I saw the latest roster and Sprint Care Wave One which had 150 agents, now only has 27, including me. Sa original team ko, Team Orion, si Ish na lang ang nandun. I feel sad whenever I see our white board na sinulatan ni Paul (our TL, who resigned months ago) ng names naming lahat. My SME team has gone down from 35 to 26 (and counting) And of course, my beloved Vonage Wave One, then 28 is now just 12 and will go down to 11 in the next two weeks. Pakshet. Halos lahat ng close ko umalis na. I'm glad yung mga natirang matibay close din sa puso ko, siguro lalo ako ma-sa-sad kung pati sila unti-unti na rin nawala. Nagtataka nga ko kung bakit nandun pa din ako. Hehe. Tanga lang.

Sabi ni TL Rye, di pa ako handa iwan yung comfort zone ko. Pano ngayon unti unti na nawawala yung comfort zone ko. Time to move on.

I posted the pic above, which I grabbed from James coz that's one of the pics I saw that made me sad. Of the four people in that pic, I'm the only one that hasn't left. Ako na lang ang natitira. Memon & Shelay resigned almost a month ago. James is set to follow in two weeks. I looked at my Photo Page earlier and I almost couldn't look at the Photo albums. Kasi sa lahat ng pictures, except sa pics na ako lang mag-isa, nasasabi ko na, "ay wala na sha, ay nag-resign na din sha." Nakakalungkot.

Nagtataka ang management kung bakit madami nang nawala. Sabi nila karamihan newbies na hindi sanay, na na-overwhelm. I say otherwise. Karamihan sa tenured agents na kaibigan ko nagresign na. Isipin nyo kung bakit. Isipin nyo kung bakit sino pa yung magagaling, yun ang mga nagresign. Sa mga kasabay ko sa Wave One ng program, tanungin nyo kung bakit 27 na lang ang natitira at madami pa ang aalis soon.


I hate goodbyes.

ramdom thoughts on a monday

I just checked my email and was surprised to find out that I was supposed to have a job interview today in Pasig. Yikes! Why was I not informed via text message or a phone call? I mean I check my email accounts daily, but its kinda weird that they inform people this way. Not everyone is OC like me, who absolutely MUST check my email everyday. And as OC as I am, I was still surprised that I was scheduled for an interview today. As in right this very minute.

So I just called the company and was able to speak with the recruiting director and rescheduled for tomorrow at 10 am. Wish me luck! :)

Funny, as soon as I placed the phone down, I got a text message informing me to check my email because I had an interview request. Ahaha! Kung kelan nakausap ko na yung dapat na maginterview sa akin, nun lang dumating yung text. What a weird system they have ^_^

Yesterday as I was on my way home, I received a text message from my sister. Dad was asking if I could buy 2 cans of evaporated milk. So as soon as I alighted from the jeep, I went to the 7-11 outside our village and bought the milk. As I got the milk, I saw a Gardenia Choco-mocha bread and grabbed a bar of Goya chocolate-almond bar (my current favorite). While paying for my stuff, I saw chupa-chups, my favorite childhood lollipop and got one.

When I got home, Dad said he made champorado. Yum! (So, that's what the milk was for.). As I was taking out the contents of my plastic bag, I realized one thing: everything I bought, save for the milk, had chocolate. And let's not forget the champorado. Ahahaha! My gah! How chocoholic can one get?

A couple of weeks ago, I watched The Holiday on HBO, starring Jude Law, Cameron Diaz, Jack Black & Kate Winslet. I didn't want to watch it before because I thought it was corny and I don't really like Cameron Diaz that much. Well, that week I was glad I watched it. I absolutely loved it! I still don't care much for Ms. Diaz but I genuinely liked the movie.

I wonder if on my next vacation I'd meet someone like Jude Law? Heehee! Highly unlikely, but who knows?

I haven't blogged much lately coz I can't seem to make up my mind on what to write, but today I can't seem to stop myself. :p. Rather than writing numerous short blogs I thought I'd write one long blog with snippets of ideas.

Just for a change.

So this is my what? 4th topic? ^_^

How about celebrities this time? Hehehe.

I really can't understand what the fuss is all about Mylie Cyrus? Did I get the spelling of her name right? No? How does one spell it? Lemme check trusty ol' google. Oh, so it's Miley ^_^. Hehe, my bad.

I don't get why there's so much hype about her. (There goes the hate mail I'm gonna receive from pre-puberty fans...) I I don't like her voice. The few times I scanned the Disney Channel while her show is on, I found her acting OA. Her mouth is too wide (ang perfect ko no? :p). And she has a big ego. I saw her interview on tv and she was asked about another Disney star, Selina Gomez (now, she's way better and more humble too. At my age, why do I know her?!), and she said she's better. Che, mabuhat ba ng sariling bangko? And she wants to make a G-rated Sex & the City? Ahahaha! that's funny. And why do I even care?

So, Angelina just gave birth to twins. Their first pictures are reportedly worth south of $16M, according to MSN. $16M or more?!! For baby pictures? The world has truly gone paparazzi crazy.

I've liked Brad Pitt since Legends of the Fall but ever since he hooked up with Angelina, I lost interest in him. Maybe because I'm on Team Aniston. Hahahaha! Affected much?

Over the weekend I read that Britney Spears just gave up full custody of her kids to her ex-husband, Kevin Federline. Ang sad. I mean I can't fathom how a mom could give up her rights to her kids like that. Mas maiintindihan ko pa kung yung dad yung mag-give up ng full custody. Not that moms deserve their kids more. But because I believe mothers and their children have this special bond. After all, the babies were in her for 9 months. Sure she has visitation rights, but its not the same as having custody of the children. Hmm.. why am I affected again?

Last na to (for this particular entry only).

I'm sure everyone have watched The Dark Knight over the weekend. US box office results say it earned $155.34M over that period, eclipsing the record previously held by Spiderman 3's opening weekend ($151M). Whoa di ba? Galeng.

Did you think that Christian Bale as the Dark Knight was overshadowed by Heath Ledger's The Joker? I thought at first that since its one of Heath Ledger's last movies (he has another one coming out within the year) the people focused more on him, but I was wrong. I still think Christian Bale fits the Batman mold best, but Heath Ledger really shined as The Joker. I mean, Jack Nicholson is a hard act to follow but his performance was nothing like Heath's. Hello? Trailer pa lang mapapa-wow ka na, sa whole movie pa? Galeng.

This early there's already a buzz that Heath could possibly get a posthumous Oscar nomination. :)

And this ends Jennie's ramdom thoughts on a monday...