happy birthday, ma

Sunday, August 27, 2006

It was mom's birthday last Friday. She would have been 57, but she'll be forever 55.

We still miss her everyday. I know we'll always miss her, but knowing that she's in a wonderful place with God gives us comfort.

I had a dream last Thursday and she was in it. I prefer to think that she's visiting me in my dreams, rather than me dreaming about her because she's always in my subconscious.

In my dream, I was in my old high school walking around with my friends. We were in our school uniforms and we were walking to St. Cecilia's Hall, because there was a school event. I remember walking through the field and I felt someone looking at me. I turned around and on the covered walk to St. Cecilia's Hall, I saw a familiar figure sitting on mom's favorite reclining chair at home (Weird, I know. How can mom's chair be in school? But it's a dream, it's not supposed to make sense, unless we dig deeper, right? :p). I couldn't see her face but I said to myself, I know that outfit. It's the outfit mom was wearing on the picture above our bookshelf. The moment I realized that, the person looked at me. It was mom! She looked at me lovingly and she had the most wonderful smile on her face. I couldn't move, I just gaped at her. I wanted to run to her and hug her but I was so surprised to see her that I just stood there. She said. "I love you." and I said I love you back.

Then I woke up.

I was so frustrated to wake up, I closed my eyes and willed myself to sleep again, but my mind was already going on overdrive and I couldn't. Then my cellphone alarm went off, it was time for me to get up and get ready to go to work.

I could still see her face clearly. And I'll never forget that lovely smile on her face.

Happy birthday, Ma.


Anonymous said...

You know...they say that when we dream of departed love ones, that they are actually there 'nagpaparamdam'... =) ~ eLa

Kai said...

At least you know that she's in a better place now. (:

Clare said...

it's good to remember your mom, kahit sad...it just goes to show how much you love her...


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Jet said...

Hi Jen! It's been a while, huh.

Happy birthday to your Mom. I think it's good that you can dream about her cause that's one of the places where you'll always be together. :)