the passion of the christ

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

The Passion of The Christ was one of the movies I was looking forward to watching. When I got to watch it, the feeling was kinda hard to describe. It was a moving experience to say the least. I knew what to expect, after all the reactions of moviegoers and critics, the promotions and the controversy surrounding the movie. But I wasn't prepared for what I saw. Yes it was graphic and brutal, but that I believe was quite an a accurate depiction of the events that transpired.

It was an eyeopener. All my years at an all girl's school and the religion classes, I thought I had a firm grasp about what Jesus did to save us. But watching the movie made me realize I didn't know half of what He went through. I guess the brutality of the movie made me look deep inside me and I felt guilty and ashamed of the sins I committed. I'm not saying I'll be a saint overnight, but seeing what He went through to save me, it made me want to be a better person.

I admit I cried. A lot. I'm a crybaby but when I watched the movie, it was a different kind of crying. I don't know exactly how to explain it. It was like the tears were coming from deep down inside me.

I salute Mel Gibson for making this movie. And Jim Caviezel was so like how I pictured Jesus in my head. He was amazing.

♥ JeN


Would you rather...?

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

1. ...Enter a mud wrestling match OR a wet t-shirt contest? nyah! neither. i find both degrading.
2. ...Meet your boyfriend's parents OR have him meet your parents? sooner or later we're going to have to meet each other's parents, but I'd rather he meet my parents first. Nakaka-tense i-meet yung parents nya kesa yung i-meet nya ang parents ko. But meeting his parents means a big step in the relationship, so okay na din yun. :p
3. ...Date an older guy OR date a younger guy? older guy. more matured, more responsible (one would hope so :p)
4. ...Get a bracelet OR a ring OR a necklace? I'm a bracelet girl, but getting a ring (especially THE ring would be great, too :p)
5. ...Be famous OR be rich? be filthy rich. hehehe!

---- from Daily Dirt

hay naku!

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

Lola Fracing arrived yesterday. Mom and I met her and her nieces-in-law at the Centenial Airport Terminal 2, coz we have their tickets for Aklan (They decided to fly to Aklan the same day they arrived in Manila from Alaska). We were supposed to meet at the Philippine Airlines Ticket Office but there was some kind of mix up. Mom looked for them while she told me to stay put at the ticket office, just in case they go there. Mom found them and it was a happy albeit short reunion, coz they had to go inside and check-in for their next flight. :) It was good to see lola, 75 years old and still chipper. She doesn't look 75, heck she walks faster than me (maybe coz i was wearing heels and i was forced to walk more ladylike. hahaha! :p). We will see them in a couple of weeks, I guess.

While I was waiting for them at the ticket office, someone sat beside me and got into a conversation with someone else. I was busy checking email on gprs so she didn't bother me, thank goodness, or maybe i had a don't bother me aura. Dunno what. I'm just glad she didn't talk to me, but I was really bothered about what she said.

At first glance, she looks like a balikbayan or a Filipino who lived in a foreign country and came back for a visit. Dyed reddish blonde hair, kinda fair skinned. As she sat beside me she asked the other girl (mejo jologs :p) "Saan ba ang magandang tourist destination dito sa Pilipinas, galing kasi ako ng States kaya di ko alam?" (roughly translated: "What is a nice tourist destination here in the Philippines? I just came from the States that's why I don't know") Sounds like an innocent enough question, right? What made my eyebrow rise and get ticked off is the way she said it. She said it very arrogantly and with a very distinct Ilonggo accent. No disrespect to Ilonggos. What I meant to say was, she has an Ilonggo accent but she doesn't know what tourist destinations are in the Philippines? And the way she spoke the Native language was better than I could. Please, she's such a poser.

Then they had to wait a while for their number be called, she thought the office closed coz it was already lunch time. She said, "Ugaling Pinoy talaga." Hello? bakit sha ba hindi Pinoy? nakalimutan na nya kung san sha nang-galing.

Let's get real, nakatungtong lang sha sa ibang bansa akala mo kung sino na sha. Nakapa-asawa lang ng Amerikano, nakalimutan na ang sariling bayan.

That's what I hate about some people. They just lived at a foreign country for a while, or married a foreigner, they already forget where they came from. They have no sense of patriotism. They act like they're better than everybody else just coz they lived in another country. I wanted to tel her that just to shut her up (coz she's telling the girl about her life in the US), but then I realized, she's not worth my time. Although I could tell she knew that I was ticked off coz I looked at her with raised eyebrows when she asked that question, and her voice kinda lowered.

You know that Petron commercial where the grandmother arrives form the US and she says, "walang ganyan sa States" whenever she has a complain about the Philippines? I hate that commercial! The first time I saw that I said, "eh di dun ka na lang sa States, wag ka na bumalik dito. di namin kelangan ng mga taong nakatira lang sa States eh kala mo kung sino na."

One of the worst kinds of people are those who have no sense of identity and nationhood and would immediately turn their backs on their home country just because they've tasted the good life somewhere else. Sad reality.

♥ JeN


I heard something funny when the pretentious woman was talking to the kinda jologs girl. They were talking about the tousirt spots here in the Philippines like Boracay Island and Amanpulo. The conversation went something like this:

PRETENTIOUS WOMAN: Saan naman yun Plantation? Sabi ng kaibigan ko maganda daw dun. (Where is Plantation? My friend said it's beautiful there) She was asking about Plantation Bay, a resort in Mactan Island, Cebu.

KINDA JOLOGS GIRL: Plantation? Ano tinatanim doon? Pinya? (Plantation? What is planted there? Pineapples?)


i'm melting...

Sunday, March 28, 2004

I wonder what's wrong with quizilla? All the picture links I posted here haven't been showing since Thursday. Weird.

Today has been a very, very hot day. I feel like I am melting. Summer is definitely here... it's still two weeks til our birthday swimming blow-out (my sister, our uncle-in-law tito gerry & I). I hope that day would come soon coz the heat is getting to me.

I woke up around 7 am feeling like my room was in hell. Dang it! There was black-out. Perfect way to start the day. Hot. Cranky. Sweaty. ARGH! Electricity was restored 2 hours later and it was great relief. Now I'm craving for ice cream. or mais con yelo or halo-halo. yummm....

Or maybe I should soak in the tub until my fingers look like prunes? wahahaha!

♥ JeN

The Future...
Saturday, March 27, 2004 (no entry for Sunday yet)

1. What do you plan on becoming? When I was a kid, I wanted to be an architect like my dad. In high school I wanted to be a lawyer. But I took Behavioral Science & Business Management in College, coz I wanted to have my own business someday. I'm yet to attain that goal, but in time, I know I'll get there. :)
2. If you could marry anyone, who would it be?hehehe... Colin Farrell or Brad Pitt. :D I thought it would be Michael (the jerk!) but I was wrong ;)
3. How many kids do you want? 2 or 3. mahirap manganak noh!
4. Do you think you'll be successful? I surely hope so!
5. What event do you think may happen in the near-ish future because of everything that's happened? No idea. hehehe.

----- from Daily Dirt


Friday, March 26, 2004

Yay! it's already Friday. The week just kinda flew by. Buti na lang.

24K Friday on RT - reminiscing time again. :p

My mom & my favorite aunt finalized the annual family outing yesterday. We're going to go swimming on April 10, Black Saturday (two days after my sister's birthday and 5 days before mine - yikes!). Mom already reserved the place. This swimming trip won't be an overnight thingy though. They said we'll have the overnight when Lola Fracing flies back to Manila from Aklan. Yay! That means we have at least two swimming trips already.

Paging Poste Peeps: kelan tayo?

♥ JeN


I haven't checked my lycos email account in a week (coz I use my yahoo primarily). and I read this email from my friend. I call him Atty Beau:

When you have an "I hate my job" day try this .......

On your way home from work, stop at your pharmacy and go to the thermometer section. You will need to purchase a rectal thermometer made by "Johnson and Johnson. Be very sure you get this brand.

When you get home, open the package and remove the thermometer. Carefully place it on a table so that it will not become chipped or broken. Take out the written material that comes with the thermometer and read it. You will
notice that in small print there is this statement:

"Every rectal thermometer made by Johnson and Johnson is personally tested."

Now close your eyes and repeat out loud five times: "I am so glad I do not work for quality control at the Johnson and Johnson Company."

Have a nice day folks and remember, there is always someone with a worse job than yours. Have a great week!


Have You ever....
Friday, March 26, 2004

1. Got so wasted you chucked up?
Fortunately never. I have a high tolerance for alcohol. heehee!
2. Stuck your finger in someone else's belly button? yuck! no way!
3. Kissed somebody of the same sex? hehehe.. does beso-beso count?
4. Cooked a meal for anyone? yup
5. Fallen in love? oh yes :)

---- from the Daily Dirt

on writing and other stuff

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

When I was younger, I always hated writing. Sure I'd get quite good grades for papers, but I only do it because I have to not because I want to. My outlet has always been drawing or painting. My notebooks were full of doodles and I'd have sketch pads which I always brought to school. I loved drawing so much I took up Visual Arts as electives in my Junior & Senior Years in High School.

When there were school plays, even in Grade School, I wouldn't audition for acting parts. I would either be in the choir or be the head of the props committee or part of the make up people (faces are like canvases to me).

It started when I was in the 1st grade at St. Scholastica's College, Manila. My artwork was selected to be part of the art exhibit the school sponsored at the Cultural Center of the Philippines. In 4th grade, my class adviser, Mrs. Agbunag tasked me to head the class project, which was a big painting of the "Peñafrancia Fluvial Parade" It's still displayed at St. Scho until now. :) My "artist phase" continued on from Grade School to High School, for all exhibits, plays & presentations we had.

I wanted to be an architect like my dad. But I took Economics & Legal Management, then later shifted to Behavioral Science & Business Management at La Salle. Drawing/painting took a backseat to research papers, accounting, fieldworks, practicum, entrepreneurship. I would only draw when I'm bored in class (you should see my notes :p)

I rediscovered the joy of writing when I had my first heartache. Hehehe. I found it very cathartic. Now I can't seem to stop writing. It's my new outlet. I still draw but I rarely paint. I just have to be in the mood when I draw. I can't force it coz I'm never satisfied with my work when I do.

I think right now, my most valued possessions are my diaries at home. It has my innermost thoughts, fears, dreams and secrets. I'd be mortified if someone reads it. Sometimes when I get the urge to, I read my old diary and I cringe and laugh at the things I wrote back then. I couldn't believe I was that mushy or cheesy at times, or how much of a bitch I can be when provoked.

I think having a blog or a diary is a good way of chronicling (is this a word? :P) your life. Or a way of getting to know your soul. That's why I can't get enough of blogging. I learn more about myself as I read back. Sometimes I may not like what I've done or have become, but as time progresses, i can see how much I've changed and I like what I see.

♥ JeN

I got a text message from a friend a while back. I liked it so much, it's still in my inbox:

DAILY PRAYER: Dear God, Thank you for making me healthy. Please make me sexy, too. If you can't make me sexy, please make all my friends fat. AMEN.


In your hood...
Wednesday, March 24, 2004

1. What's your neighbourhood like in the morning? since our street is part of the "friendship route" (which lets motorists from other villages/subdivisons to pass through provided they have a sticker), our street is kinda busy in the mornings. Although since early this month, there's a road construction, the vehicles were rerouted to another street within the village. So for the past few weeks, our street has been relatively quiet.
2. What is it like around midnight? very quiet
3. Do you know a lot of people from your neighbourhood? quite a lot but we don't talk much :p
4. How safe is your neighbourhood? i think it's quite safe. There are guards at both gates to the subdivision, a sticker is required for vehicles to enter, if they have no stickers, licenses or ids are left with the guards, which they can get only when they leave. Our phase also has a roving guard at night.
5. Get outta there or lovin' it? I love it here. it's quiet, it's quite safe, and we've lived here since I was 7 years old.

---- from Daily Dirt

What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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Slippers- happy, sweet, and adorable, you are well loved by everyone. People cannot help but like you. You love to be surrounded by people that love you, who- in your case- is anyone.


Tuesday, March 23, 2004

boohoo! Kimi Raikkonen had another engine blow-out at last Sunday's Formula 1 Malaysian Grand Prix. Kaasar! Mclaren-Mercedes is off to a terrible start. I hope they would do well at the Bahrain GP, two weeks from now.

If you caught someone in a lie, do you confront them or do you just let it go? I actually found out a few months back that someone I know has been spinning lies about a major thing. Now I don't know how to communicate with that person coz I honestly do not know which of the things I know about that person is true or not. Labo ba? I'm gonna be ambiguous about the person's identity kasi.

I'm confused. At first I was pissed off. I had actually been suspecting that some of the things I know about that person were lies (coz you know that when you've told so many lies, you can't keep track and contradict yourself? - first hand knowledge ba ito? haha!). But when I kinda confirmed it (by using my deductive thinking - uy, nagamit! :p), i got angry. Coz I felt like I've been deceived.

When my rational side resurfaced, I thought maybe that person thought that he/she needed to embellish some things coz he/she is not comfortable with who he/she really is. But still, something based on lies isn't gonna last. You're bound to get caught sooner or later.

Now that got me to thinking why people think they should be something they aren't. It's always best to be truthful, not only to other but to ourselves, coz let's face it, how can we expect other people to like us if we don't like ourselves? Why do we have to misrepresent ourselves? To get ahead in life? to catch that certain someone's attention? Sure it will work at first, but as the lies keep building, you're bound to get caught. And then what? you're left with nothing and you feel even worse than before.

I still don't know what do. I need more time to think about this.

♥ JeN

Cry me a river...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004

1. When was the last time you cried? Wednesday, March 17, 2004
2. Who made you cry? read my blog entry ;)
3. What makes you cry just thinking about it? mom's health
4. Have you ever made someone else cry? who hasn't? but yeah I have made someone cry, i can be a biatch when warranted.
5. Do you cry during sad movies? i'm a cry baby. :D and sometimes I don't just cry, I bawl. hahaha!

--- from Daily Dirt

summer's here! :D

Monday, March 22, 2004

It's Monday again, time flies fast. Gah! I feel like Garfield. I remember back in school, I was really grumpy on Monday mornings. i would usually sleep in the car on the way to school, and would grumble when mom would wake me up coz we're already there. I would grumble from the car all the way to my classroom, or until I'd see my friends. My grumpiness would disappear once I've seen my friends, and the giggly, talkative side of me would emerge. Schizo! hahaha!

It's so hot today... I cannot wait to go swimming, or go to Baguio, this summer. My mom, my aunt and I talked about our annual family outing last Friday, albeit briefly. We're going to scout for a resort, probably this week. Yay!

I always look forward to our family outings. We usually go during Holy Week or the week either my sister's or my birthday (our birthdays are exactly a week apart). My cousins and I start talking about it during our Christmas reunion and we all get excited we can't wait for it to come. Sometimes we go swimming or we go up to Baguio or we do both. Mom, my tita Belle & I are usually the ones who organize it, which we usually do when March rolls along. Woohoo! Counting the days...

My grandfather's sister, Lola Fracing called last Friday and said she was going home on the 29th. She lives in Alaska with her family. She usually goes home once a year. She was here February last year and she was able to go with us on our family outing. This year, I hope she can come, too.

She'll be accompanied by her late husband's nieces coz their father is sick and they want to visit him. So from the international airport, Lola & her nieces in law will go straight to the Domestic airport to fly to the province of Aklan. I don't know when she'll fly back to Manila, but I hope she can come with us on our overnight swimming trip.

My mom & her sisters have been planning to go to Aklan since January. I heard them planning and I said I wanted to go, too. I haven't been there in almost six years. I want to visit our realtives and of course, go to Boracay once again.

If you haven't been to Boracay, I strongly suggest you do. It's like a little piece of heaven (if heaven was a tropical paradise). Nice blue waters, fine white sand, beautiful dive sites, mysterious coves, and serious partying all night long.

Check out the photos of Boracay taken by award winning photographer, Gunther Deichmann here.

I don't know if my mom & my aunts are going with Lola, but i sure as heck would invite myself along if they will. Hahahaha!

I love summer... :D

♥ JeN

Last night...
Sunday, March 21, 2004

1. Where were you? I was at home. boring :p
2. What time did you sleep? 2:30 am
3. What were you thinking about? lots of things. mom's health, our family outing, things to do this week.
4. Did you brush your teeth? of course! :D
5. Did you visit Daily Dirt? sorry, i didn't.

-- from Daily Dirt

Which Peanuts Character are You?
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You are Lucy!

quizilla time! :D

Saturday, March 20, 2004

nothing much to do.

- watched Malaysian Grand Prix Formula1 Qualifyings.

- fixed my room, coz two of chie's friends are staying over & since they won't fit in chie's room, we're gonna switch rooms for the night.

- too tamad to write about the concert I watched last night. maybe tomorrow :p

- when i'm tamad to write, i take Quizilla quizzes. hehehe!

What color crayon are you?
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You are: Blue Crayon

What color is your energy?
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Orange Vibes
Your Energy is Orange. Restless at times, you are a very focused self starter. People with orange energy are organized, inspirational and design conscious. You are confident in your abilities and like to be in control.

You would make a good architect, teacher, designer, or entreprenuer.

What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
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Baby's laughter: Warm, kind and loving; a baby's laugh represents you. You are very innocent and enjoy the simple things in life. You are probably very good with children and have a positive, happy soul.

Are you a good friend???
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You're the perfect friend,your tight with your friends but not possesive. You and your best buds can still handle being apart though you really enjoy each others company. No matter what their always there for you and your always there for them.

MUSIC: Has MTV/Music Industry Brainwashed You Or Do You Know What REAL Music Is?
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You Believe that there is more out of the box than what the music-money hungry brainwashers have to offer! Thank you for your vote it has helped me believe that their are still those of you who know that the music industry sucks (not all the way......but most of it) and you're constantly hoping for better music to come along.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Your Element is Flame. You have a strong, independent, fiery personality and you obviously don't ley others push you around. You like being in charge and don't care what other people think. In fact, you like to stand out and be yourself. You're probably shy when people first meet you but your a ball of energy that could explode at any given moment. You like to laugh and whether you admit it or not, you like to fight. You're peronality that is wild and untamable. Your beauty is physically fit and a little sexy and you have a very pretty face. (bwahahaha! ganun?)

normal na uli ako :D

Friday, March 19, 2004

Before I ramble on, I wanna thank Jacque, Clare & Ginny for the nice comments. Thanks you guys for making me feel better. halabshu! (hehehe, mala-bading ang dating. :p)

I'm back to normal. :) Salamat naman, coz I really hate having a pity party. I'd rather be cheerful & carefree. Who doesn't, di ba? :)

I finally got to watch the American Idol Uncut, Uncensored, UNTALENTED show last Wednesday night. Hehehe! Funny! Shempre William Hung was there and he performed "She Bangs!" with 4 "groupies", as Ryan Seacrest said. He closed the show with his own rendition of Elton John's "Can You Feel the Love Tonight" He actually sounded better, if you compare his performance to his audition piece. Dapat lang noh, he's had ample practice from all the performances he's done since he first appeared on American Idol.

Anyway, here are some of the pictures my sister took from the Incubus concert, last Friday (mejo malabo kasi camera phone yung gamit):

l-r: jose, ben, brandon, mike, dj kilmore (this was during megalomaniac yata, basta bandang start ng show - note the shiny heads of the security people :p)

kasalukuyang sumisigaw pa ako :p

...malamang dito din

ben & jose, si brandon parang ghostly image hahaha!

brandon solo.. haaaay...

balik kayo ha........

to show you how near we were to the stage (although nagkalayo kami, mas malapit ako sa gitna), on the foreground were the shiny bald heads of the security people.

haay... wala nang shirt si brandon. GRABEH!!!

this was how Chie & I looked after the concert nung nagkita-kita uli kami. kinut ko yung brother ko coz I know maiinis sha pag sinama ko yung pic nya, kasi nakakatawa expression niya. hahahaha!


Mom just called, she has free tickets to the Keith Martin (Because of You) concert with Kyla. Nood daw kami. :p Hehehe.. di ko mashado type pero okay yun, libre naman eh. Trying to contact my Tita if she wants to watch. Phone busy. My cousin is probably online. :p I-YM ko nga...

Concert hopping ako ah. Hehehe! ibang genre naman ngayon :p


♥ JeN

back to reality

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

WARNING: I'm feeling low and I need to get this out of my system. I don't want to get you down, too. So you don't have to read this. It's okay. :)


I guess it's true what some people say that when you're happy one day, the next day you'd be sad, to kinda have balance. After being on cloud nine a few days after the concert, landing back on earth felt like a crash landing. or maybe that's how bursting your bubble feels like.

I'm back to reality and somehow reality feels really awful. I am faced with worries - worries I kinda set aside, but now I feel like I can't anymore.

Everyday when mom goes home from work, I can tell that she's not feeling well. That she tries to hide it, but I know she feels pain. And I can't do anything. I feel helpless.

For those who doesn't know, my mom has been battling breast cancer since 1997. She was on remission for four years after the surgery. Her doctor said that if she's cancer free for 5 years that means she has completely overcome it. But it came back in the year 2000 and mom had to undergo 3 cycles of chemotherapy & 30 days of radiation therapy after chemo. It was very difficult, but mom pulled through and was again on remission. It came back last year and she underwent 6 cycles of chemotherapy. Christmas last year was more memorable coz we knew that everytime spent with each other was precious. We again faced an obstacle and we got through it.

My mom is very strong and her faith is boundless. I guess that's how I, too can deal with it, added to the fact that being the eldest, I have to be strong for my siblings. When I'm alone in my room that's when I bawl my eyes out. I can't let my mom see me like that coz I know it will get her down. The same goes for my siblings, coz when they do see me, it will be like a dam collapsing.

I sometimes act as if I'm the happiest person alive or I have everything under control, but inside I am a wreck. When I am alone in my room that's when it hits me. I worry about mom's health. And I admit I am selfish. I don't want to lose my mom coz I don't know what I will do without her.

My mom still goes to work. She doesn't look like she's sick. But sometimes I look at her and I know she feels something but she isn't telling us. She's always laughing (except on times when she's really tired). Almost every night we have conversations about how our day went and other stuff. And I treasure those moments. I guess its one of the reasons why I sometimes don't go out with friends when they invite me. I feel like I have to spend more time with my family.

Sometimes I rant and ask why my mom. And I admit sometimes I get angry at God for giving us this kind of burden. Then I realize He's not gonna give us something we can't handle. Or maybe I'm the eternal optimist that thinks every challenge will only make us stronger. And it did make us stronger, both as a family and individually. My family and I are closer than ever, and when things get rough, I say to myself, we've been through worse, so I know I can hack it.

And sometimes I have days like this, when no matter how I try to be optimistic, it seems to fail and I sit here and feel sorry for myself. Dang it! I hate this kind of days!

If you've read through all this, thank you and I apologize if I got your spirits down.

I hope I'm back to normal tomorrow. Whatever normal is for me. :)

♥ JeN


Michael W. Smith

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled

A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems

Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me

Hear me asking
Where do I belong?
Is there a vision
That I can call my own?

Show me, I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world


Saturday, March 13, 2004

first thoughts when I woke up:

OH MY GAWD!!!! I can die now ... wahahaha! ang morbid!i was spitting distance from brandon boyd.... as in front and center. seat numbers were forgotten, as soon as the lights went out, we ran to the barricades between the stage & the crowd. buti na lang mabilis kami, at sanay sa concert viewing sa Pinas. the best concert i ever attended!! so worth it!

they rocked!!! and we can see from their faces that they enjoyed playing for the pinoy crowd. Brandon was all smiles whenever the crowd would sing along (which was all the time ), it was also the new bassist, Ben's birthday and he was so happy when the crowd sang happy birthday to him (well, i'm not realy sure if it was his birthday or they say this everytime they hold a concert, either way, we sang happy birthday. hehehe!). they sang a total of 21 songs and brandon played the guitar on 2 songs (he said it was only the 4th time he played in a concert so, Manila was fortunate). ay naku.. nasa clouds pa ko...


more detailed entry:

I can't find my wits yet. hahaha!! I am having a serious INCUBUS hangover. I've been listening to all the Incubus songs on our MP3 player over and over - that must be around 70 songs with some songs having 2-3 versions (acoustic and live versions). I can still replay the whole concert in my head, but i am so hyper, i don't know how to put them into words.

My brother, his friend and I arrived at the concert venue around 6 pm - all hyped up. There were a lot of people at the standing sections but there weren't many people at our area yet (maybe because the seats were numbered (but i seriously doubt, it was followed). The venue was HUGE! with 2 video screens on both ends of the stage plus two more at the standing sections. We were surprised that the area in between the reserved seats and the standing area was big. As in yung mga nasa PhP900.00 area, ang layo sa amin. The barricades in between sections were super secured. Security was so tight. There were a lot of policemen in and around the venue, aside from the security people hired by the concert promoters.

My sister & her friend, Des, arrived from the Museo Pambata book launch (where they worked), a few minutes after 7 pm. We hung out near the stage (with the intention of standing in front of the barricades separating the stage and the crowd). I think most people thought of the same thing, except for the "mababait" that went back to their seats when the ushers told them to. Mabait nga ba o hindi sanay manood ng concert sa Pinas at akala eh masusunod ang seating arrangements? hahahaha!

While we were waiting for the show to start, there were some corny games hosted by the "official" radio station, Magic 89.9. Ngek! Bakit Magic? Di ba dapat NU107, the home of new rock? Weird. Anyway, back to the games, it was hosted by Mojo Jojo (what a name :p), and two kikay girls. Sorry, alam ko dj sila sa Magic, pero kikay talaga sila. The usual "bring me" games and "sing an Incubus song" were played. Geez! sana wala na lang nun, ang baduy talaga. Everyone that joined the "sing an Incubus Song", grabeh ang mga boses. :p wahaha! minurder yung songs.

Lots of celebrities walked around us, Rico Blanco & Cacoi of Rivermaya, Ira of Bamboo, Epy & boy2 Quizon (si July of Globe), Eric Menk & Alex Compton, Borgy Manotoc. I can't remember who else. But, the crowd near us were full of what we call the I.S. crowd. ASUS!

As soon as the lights dimmed, we walked in front of the stage, so when the concert started, we were already in in position. Nahiwalay ako sa mga kasama ko pero okay lang. I was front & center, about 7 people separating me from my companions. I was about 6 feet from the stage (which was the span between the stage and the barricades). Yun yung pwesto ng big, burly, mostly kalbo security people & the band's road manager.

The show was 30 minutes late & you could feel the excitement among the crowd. Anticipation was building, so when the show started, all the pent-up energies were released. GRABEH! Lights were closed but we could see the band taking their positions, so as soon as the first member (Mike the guitarist - you could see him coz of his big curly hair) entered the stage, people went wild. Even if I didn't want to jump, I was forced to, kasi mapapasama ka. Ganon kadikit, it was good that i was surrounded by girls. hehehe!

The first bars of Megalomaniac played. And we were all jumping and singing along. Oh, don't forget screaming. We did a lot of that. Hahaha! That's why I am paos & my sister has no voice :p They sang a total of 21 songs and we all sang and screamed along. At one point, Brandon got an electric guitar and played lead. He metioned it was only his 4th time to play at a concert. SWERTE NG PILIPINAS! I actually read about that at their official messageboard, that he played guitar on one of the concerts in the US. Drive brought the house down, as well as, A Certain Shade of Green, Talk Shows on Mute, Crow Left of the Murder, Warning and many more.

The band was great! Brandon was awesome. OH MY GAWD! When he took his shirt off, all the girls (and the gays, too :p) screamed at the top of their lungs. Sige na nga, pati ako sumigaw. BWAHAHAHA! I could hear shouts of, "I love you Brandon!", "Ang gwapo mo, Brandon!" then some guys shouted "Brandon, marry me!" hehehe, i'm sure they were joking, as did everyone else coz we all laughed.

Basta, ang galing nilang lahat. And you can tell that they were enjoying themselves and they loved the crowd's reactions, by the way they smiled widely. Brandon also played the bongo, the new bassist, Ben, played the drums with Jose, who was so awesome. Mike the guitarist was very serious ( i didn't even see him smile), but his guitar riffs would leave you breathless, and DJ Kilmore was galeng din!

At one point, Brandon looked like he was looking at me. DI ako nagiilusyon, noh. :p Basta dun sha nakatingin sa part ko. :D

We thought cameras wouldn't be allowed so we didn't bring the digicam. ACK! The guy next to me had one (ay, may katabi pala akong guy :p), but he was chummy with a few of the security people, kaya siguro meron sha. My sister took pics from her phone, though it was kinda far coz there was no zoom.

I recorded Wish You Were Here from my phone, which I almost forgot it could do :p. So I have a remembrance from one of the best concerts I have ever been to. I've played it over & over on the drive home, until now. Haaay....

When the band said goodbye, I said, "Nooo.. more pa, bitin!" Everyone started shouting. "more, more", when they got off the stage. And the stage hands were clearing the areas already. But i knew they'd come back, coz they haven't sung, "Pardon Me" yet.

The first one to come back was Ben, the new bassist. and we sang Happy Birthday to him, to his obvious delight. When Brandon returned he had a towel on his head and on his shoulders. Hahaha! parang handa nang umalis. And he had this big grin on his face, actually, they all had, even Mike had a hint of a smile (sobrang serious :p). They sang 2 encores, "Are You In?" and of course, "Pardon Me".

After the concert, I had a hard time calling people (was it because there were so many people using their cellphones, too, or because Smart was one of the major sponsors? hehehe.) I didn't get to see Jean, coz I couldn't contact her. On the way home, my sister, my brother, his friend and I were kinda dazed. hehehe! parang we were in our own little worlds replaying the whole thing. They were looking at the pics Chie took, which i didn't get to see coz they were at the backseat.

We were drenched in sweat, our ears were still ringing from being so near the stage, we were tired, but we were freaking happy!

I will not forget this day. I'll even have my ticket laminated. hahaha!

Will post some of the pics as soon as uploaded.

♥ JeN

my favorite incubus song from the "Morning View" cd (2000)


I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind,
pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a back-lit canopy
with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's,
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment i am happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you
Wish you were here

The world's a rollercoaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air, saying

I wish you were here
I wish you were...
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you
Wish you were here


Friday, March 12, 2004

OH MY GAWD! in just a few hours, i shall see Brandon Boyd & the rest of Incubus. Whoo! Grabeh! To say that I am super excited is an understatement. :D

Pics from the lunch eb last Tuesday shall be posted later. :)


♥ JeN


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Sunday, March 07, 2004

I'm feeling a lot better now. YaY!! I didn't have fever the whole day, and my throat feels better, too. Last time I had fever was around dawn, and hopefully it wouldn't come back anymore.

We spent the whole day at home, just relaxing at our own little nooks, doing our own little things. :) it was just a lazy sunday for all of us, a day for relaxation.

I woke up late again. I actually woke up before 6 am, but i quickly fell back to sleep. Hehehe! The next thing I knew, my cellphone alarm was on. It was already 10:45 am! And it was the start of the Australian Grand Prix in Alberta Park, Melbourne, Australia. Yay! The first race of the 2004-2005 Season.

The track was located by the bay, it was amazing. And there must have been around 100,000 people watching the Grand Prix. it was a sight to see. A sea of people, most of whom were wearing something red (obviously Scuderia-Ferrari-Marlboro fans). The race was off to a good start, but it quickly turned sour for me. My favorite Kimi Raikkonen had an engine blow-out right after Sauber's Felipe Massa overtook him.

It was obvious from his actions that he was really upset that the MP4-19 wasn't up to par with the Ferrari, the BMW & even the Renault. Asar!

As expected, it was a Ferrari 1-2 finish (Schumi then Reubens), and at third was Renault's Fernando Alonso.

shempre, taas ng talon nya :p

The winners: l-r Jean Todt, Reubens, Schumi, & Alonso

The race was pretty much decided early on. Oh well.. 17 races to go. I hope the McLaren team could adjust quickly. hehehe... obvious ba na favorite ko ang formula 1?

Time flies fast, it's already the second week of March. Nyay! Maya-maya, April na, tapos birthday ko na... NOOOOOOO!!! Hahahaha!

Ay wag muna yun...

Tuesday, I shall be meeting a few friends for lunch. yay! Then on Friday... Incubus... here I come!!! :D

I hope this week will be a great week. :)

♥ JeN

thanks to F1-Live for the race pictures.

boring saturday

not so good saturday for me. i woke up at 3 am shivering, covered from head to toe with my blanket. if my comforter wasn't folded, i would have been under it already. i don't know how i got the fever. before i slept, i felt fine. weird. then i felt my throat fell like it was closing up. i suspected i had the beginnings of a throat infection. grrrr!

i took some medicines (which i keep in a pillbox by my nightstand), but it didn't feel like it worked or if it did, it took a long time. i was awake from 3 am to 5 am, listening to the radio, coz there wasn't anything good on cable tv at those times. i caught the tailend of 24K Friday.

my sister woke me up at 8 am to tell me she & my brother were leaving for work (chie) & school (toppet). mom & dad left around 6:30 am, which means, i'll be home alone (with our 5 dogs :p) until about lunch time. "good. i can sleep", i thought to myself. mom & dad didn't know i was sick coz they left before i woke up. it's okay though. i don't want to worry them unnecessarily (coz they always say i get fever easily & they worry why i do).

i was asleep from about 8 till 10 am. i woke up to my cellphone alarm. i had forgotten that today was the qualifyings for the Formula 1 Australian Grand Prix. got up, got ready, and straightened up the house a bit. then i watched the qualifyings.

that was the highlight of my day. hehehe! too bad though coz my favorite, Kimi Raikkonen of the Mclaren-Mercedes Team was just 10th position.

kimi raikkonen

kimi in action

Bad start for the mclarens. i hope their strategy would work though, coz they've done it before: winning from 10th place. i guess i'll just have to wait & see if they can do it again tomorrow.

kaines. i hope michael schumacher wouldn't win the world championship this year. tama na naka-6 na sha noh. iba naman.

ayoko din manalo si
JP Montoya - he's too cocky.

if Kimi wouldn't win, then it's okay if Reubens Barrichello or Fernando Alonso wins. Chige na nga, Jenson BUtton na din (which i doubt coz his car isn't as superior as a ferrari, mercedes or a bmw.

waaah! i am so green with envy. my friend inna is in australia right now, watching the Grand Prix from Melbourne Park. i will console myself with the wonderful pictures she posted on her blog. :D

my friend mylin is in the country right now. she arrived this morning to attend her brother's wedding. kaka-aliw coz it was a surprise. i will see her & some other friends on tuesday. we'll have lunch. yay! :D

eep! nagalit si mother. bakit daw gising pa ko at nasa harap ng computer, eh may sakit ako? huling-huli! wala akong maidahilan. hahaha! till next update!

good night, world!

♥ JeN

PS: thanks to F1-live and Kimi Raikkonen's Official site for the pictures.

woo-hoo! :D

Friday, March 05, 2004

Exactly a week from today, my siblings & I will be watching INCUBUS' concert at the PICC grounds. WOO-HOO!!!! I can't wait! :D:D:D

grabeh, di na yata ako makakatulog. mwahahaha!

As I write this, my friend, Mylin is airborne on her way from San Fransisco, USA to the Pearl of the Orient Seas. :D Yay! We haven't finalized yet when we'll be seeing each other. I will have to wait for her text when she arrives tomorrow. That's a very long flight. Yikes! Di kaya sha ma-windang dahil sa jet lag? hehehe!

Fridays are reminiscing days for me. It's the day 99.5 RT plays all the songs I grew up with. Shempre, sing along din ako. hahaha! UY, nice! Change the World by Eric Clapton ft. Babyface. "...change the world... i will be the sunslight in your universe..." :D

Happy Weekend!

♥ JeN

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peechur! peechur! uli! :D

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

It's not as hot as the last two days, but yeah.. summer's here!

I watched American Idol last night. The telecast is two weeks delayed from the US airing, so that means, I won't be seeing William Hung (hahaha! obvious bang favorite ko sha?) until after I see Incubus in concert.

William: "She bangs, She bangs!"
Simon: "you can't sing, you can't dance, so what are you going to say?"
William: "I already gave my best, and thus I have no regrets at all."

Hehehe... kakatawa talaga sha! :D His audition piece, She bangs by Ricky Martin, has been remixed with Outkast's Hey Ya! is on rotation at 99.5 RT . Hahaha! First ever American Idol reject to be famous :p

I just learned today that there are two Fil-Ams in American Idol. I thought it was only Camille Velasco, but my friend says there's another one, I forgot her first name but her surname is Trias. Aliw ako! Galing talaga kumanta ng Pinoy!

I fell asleep kinda early last night. That's a rare occurrence, mind you. Last thing I heard was Neil's laughter on the radio & I woke up to Joe Schmoe's laugh. Weird. :p Sayang! I didn't hear Mylin call from the US. Hahaha! Nagulat siguro si Slyde. I was dead to the world. As in tulog-mantika! :p

Yay! long overdue pictures from sean's baptism/swimming have been uploaded. Pictures were taken by Chie or by yours truly. :) Na-lipat na rin at last from the digicam & chie's phone.

my nephew gian with his godzilla look (taken last christmas at home)

asus! serious daw :p (l-r: geebee, chie, genrick, ate weng, hannah, jec, emman)

yan! ganyan talaga sila sa totoong buhay :p (hannah, ate weng, chie, jec, geebee, emman, genrick)

the butt patrol :p

uuy.. si hannah.. pa-cute! :p

ang cute na magninang :D

sexy! (tita dely & mommy)

hala hannah.. ayan na sila!!! (hannah, j, emman, genrick)

giant chie & the liliputans (chie, j, geebee)

sarap! (geebee & emman)


mwahahahaha! tita neng :p

sa iband slide naman... (tita neng & geebee)

chie & j at a mall after the family outing

sweltering tuesday

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

It's still hot today. I guess that means summer is already here. I cannot believe how fast the weather changed. It was still kinda cool in the morning of Feb. 29, when I woke up. But yesterday, it was sweltering. Yikes! I can imagine how hot it would be by the April.

I wanna go swimming!!! I can't wait for our annual swimming trip with my cousins. Usually by this time we're already planning when & where it will be. I haven't heard anything yet. Geng!!! Sabihin mo na kay mama mo, bilis! :p

My mom & my aunt talked about going to Aklan this summer, in passing. They wanna visit my lolo's siblings, coz they've been inviting us for years. Sarap nun! Shempre sasabit ako. :p I haven't been to Aklan in 6 years, i think. Which means, I haven't been to Boracay in 6 years, too. Now's the time!!!! :D I hope it pushes through.

I also wanna go to Baguio, our last trip there was 2 years ago, I think. I miss the pine scent (though at times Baguio smells like gasoline fumes, specially along Session Road.) and the cold weather. The place we usually stay in (the Arce's house) is really nice. :D I'd be content to just stay there. hehehe! I love their garden and the big lawn. I wish it were my house. :p

I got a message from Inna just now. She said she's in Australia to watch the Australian Grand Prix this weekend. Dang it! I am so green with envy! :p Hahaha! I'd give anything to be able to watch a Formula 1 GP. That's actually on my list of things to do before I die (yes, I have one of those :p). I messaged her back and said to kiss Kimi Raikkonen for me. hehehe! I know she'll have a grand time. I hope it will be me soon. :D

♥ JeN
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Monday, March 01, 2004

Today is my parents' 29th Wedding Anniversary. Wow! Galeng noh? I'm very happy and proud that they are still going strong after all these years. Of course, no marriage is perfect, but I hope I get to have something like what they have when it's my turn. (Naks!)

Geebee, Happy Birthday!!!! Blow-out naman jan! ;) mwehehehe...

I'm feeling more chipper than yesterday. :) Buti na lang coz I really hate feeling angsty and irritated. Negative energy gives me headaches (literally & figuratively). :p

Just finished watching the Oscar Awards. It was looooooooooooooooooooong. We had to watch it 2 hours longer than the rest of the world. Blame it all on RPN 9, who had all the cable channels showing the Oscars blocked, because they were "exclusive". We had no choice but to sit through the numerous commercials. Damn you RPN!

The award show itself was great. Billy Crystal was amazing. His opening number and of course, the opening video clip he did was hilarious. Renee Zellweger and Tim Robbins won supporting role honors. Charlize Theron won as expected. Anti-Hollywood Sean Penn finally won (and deservedly). But of course, it was the night of the hobbits, elves, dwarves, wizards & head hobbit, Peter Jackson! They tied with Titanic & Ben-hur for most Oscars won, but it was a clean sweep for them. It was a fitting ending to a great adventure of epic proportions. Naks! I sound like a Hollywood reporter or a gushing film critic. Hehehehe!

The only part I didn't like about the Oscars was when Alison Krause sang the two songs nominated from Cold Mountain. No offense meant (specially coz she was wearing a $2 million, diamond-encrusted shoes), but I almost fell asleep. It was boring. :p

Hay naku, kaines. My sister just said she's gonna use the pc after me. Kaines naman, kung kelan ako gumagamit, ayan na naman sha. Kanina pa nya gamit ito no. Antay lang muna sha, nagko-compose pa ko ng blog entry :p

Funny lang coz just like before, as soon as March rolls in, so does the heat. Summer is definitely here. It was sooooo hot today. I think at it's peak, it was around 34 degrees. Yikes! Grabe...

Happy Monday!

♥ JeN